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Sunday, June 16, 2013

If I die young, bury me in satinLay me down on a bed of rosesSink me in the river at dawnSend me away with the words of a love song

listening to this.. 

n wondering.. 
if i die young.. what would happen to the world that i leave

if i die young, pls leave space for me in ur memory
but stilll may your life be happy
sing a happy tune when you think of me
so that tears flow with love that's abounding

if i die young, pls bring my brother back to my family
to ease all the pain and sorrow
that my family may be suffering
but still
if i die young, i hope ppl will send me off knowing that ill still be happy
galloping in the winds with my hair ever flowing

if i die young, pls know that i'll be looking
making sure that you people are happy
with my cousin and grandpa right beside me
we'll never ever be lonely
so those one earth
pls believe us
that we're no longer suffering

dear lord i pray that you'll forgive me
for the people I'vve left behind  weeping
as i walk on further to thee
pls let these people know that
i'd nv have been me
if they were not part of my life
as they have always been

to my mum and dad,
you may have heard my nagging
seen my grumpiness
felt my anger
endured my pain
but pls know that
if i die young
that for those years that ive lived
the love for the both of you
was more than you ever imagined :)

to my brothers
we may have fought
we may have shopped together
we may have hated each other
but blood in us runs deep
and no matter what
we'll forever be siblings
and i'll always love the 2 of you
for being the two totally opposite kind of brothers
that I have grown up with
and always looked up to

to my boyfriend
for always ferrying me to and fro
for always bearing with my nagginess.. 
with my black face
or gone along with what i want
cos girls r always right
haha!
thanks for being there
if i die young
pls leave a space for my in your heart
but then, 
let that space diminish so that you can love again as though it was never hard

to all the people and friends that i love and knewi know sometimes i irritated e hell out of you peoplesometimes im so dumb that u all cant stand mebut stillall the laughters and the days we had togetherare pieces of the memories that i'll bring along with me to heaventogether with the music and the journeys we've had 

so if i die young
pls remember not the death of my body
but remember me when i was alive and smiling
remember me not as the ashes that may be blown away by the wind
but by the sound of happy music resounding

if i die young,
pls show this passage to the people i love
because i'll never know when my time is up
and when its up
i dont wan to leave in regrets
and to leave people behind i love behind in sadness
so pls be a kind soul
and for your efforts 
 i'll thank u ever so
i'll watch over u becos
kindness begets kindness


if i cannot b a baker in this life,
may i be a baker in the next :)







Monday, June 03, 2013

at the age of 24(gg to 25),
i sometimes tend to see the world in different light
maybe its due to the ingraining of social theories
making me attempt to deconstruct what is happening subconsciously

liking someone
falling in love with the someone
doing all they can for that someone
and to not have that someone reciprocate
is sth amazing.
from these images, these happenings
what i see somehow is not love.
when they try, they fail, they give up and they "love" someone else

it seems like love is simply a want
not a need
we, as humans, presume the need to have a bf or a gf
the need to be loved
but issit really a need
or is it purely a want
or issit a form of mimicry
where we see what is shown in tv shows, in reality tv, in movies
and we vicariously learn and pick up these "needs"

if its something you are in need of
how can you give it up so easily
if it is something you are in need of
how can you find someone else to substitute so quickly
it becomes like a hunting game
to hunt for a suitable nice single prey
and if that prey escapes
u target another one in sight
you hide. you prowl and you get near by all means
but once the prey sprints away so ever quickly
many wont even chase after it
and whilst the current hunt ends. 
yet a new one enfolds in the blink of an eye

but all in all
i do love my boyfriend :)