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Wednesday, February 27, 2013

happy memories can be sad
on times that were
yet never again will occur
with photos snapped
but as photos they shalt remain
motionless as things come to a wrap
when life turns into death
that's when the ones left behind
weep and hope
but yet
multitudes of feelings still surround
as past joys turn around
leaving endless tears abound

if life's sorrows can be llike the topping on a cupcake
how wonderful it would be
to pipe it all out
leaving nothing but
a creation of beautiful and amazing taste and texture
on a minute yet punch of sweetness in your mouth

work has been tough lately
frustrating in fact when people blame you for things beyond ur control
when others are absent 
but yet blame is pushed upon you
when confusion is aroused by another
but yet the arrow shoots in ur direction
when all u need is a pat on the back 
with someone telling u that its ok
instead
e day ends with 
a hasty remark with a hint of what a trash i would and probably be
words and texts can indeed be a double edged sword
that u can use to fight with
that can be used to fight against you
why cant words sound more soothing
injected with a little amount of empathy
perhaps i should go reflect on myself instead.











Saturday, February 23, 2013

it seriously sucks to be at my current zone.
everyday i feel my lifeless self dragging my feet to the room
and then plonking into my seat
typing and updating endless stuffs.. picking up phone calls.
dealing with rosters. with leave application. with mcs. with unhappy officers who want to take off but cant
and multitasking.. 
and just endless endlesss endless stuffs to do 
that all i feel like when im at work
is as though im running..
cos im constantly racing against time
and straining myself 
and my patience to the core

 hours just passs doing such meaningless stuffs
time just flies away with the aim of attempting to finish up everything within the stipulated 7 hours of shift
never ending amounts of email asking me to do this and to finish up that and to nominate someone etc
all in the midst of the stupid phone ringing, officers asking for this and that.. and having to be updating stuffs none stop.. argh
and i dont find any of these stuffs im doin meaningful at all... y not just freaking hire some admin person to do it? maybe 2.. cos one person will probably die doing this every day

 currently.
i can officially say I HATE going to work
just cant wait to end of these 3 months and move to another zone..
i wonder how the previous ppl managed to survive here
but i guess
maybe they just barely survived during their months there
and 
although it really really sucks and im at such a high stress level at work throughout the hours of my work.. 
i know
i can do it! i have to anyways.. 
nv been so stressed up in my life. not even during my psle, o levels, a levels, uni life.

so now. im just gg to just do my work and count down to my last day at chops. 
AHHHHH




Wednesday, February 20, 2013

its high time to
find some determination
and make it work :)