Orientation 2005... (2nd intake) ...

...was rather fun la.. when we first got into our cg classes.. a bit wierd wierd.. coz dun realli noe ani peepz there.. other den some nh ppl n some peepz from og20 larz.. den so sway.. they divided us into our kingdoms.. i will lyke.. yey .. i m in illipia again.. until the stupid fella said:"ok.. s- - to s77 is illipia! " .. n ya.. i m S78.. ha.. so i m in numentia.. dun u tink numentia sounds so lyke a disease liddat..ha.. so er xin nehz..

hmz.. cant realli recall which event went first.. but i'll juz roughly sae thro la.. * i tink it was games first.. tazion n numentia in the hall.. dancing father abraham , den some game in which we have to find the colour of the tape n out our body parts there(eg.foot or elbow etc) playing 'how much are u worth' n sway sway ar.. me n hubert(my good fren born on same dae as me..haha) got forfeit both times lorz.. so cmi.. *went for family time..got to noe more ppl from our cg who will be wif us for lyke the next 2 yrs.. andrew n sulin(cant rem) was our cgls.. after family time.. we more or less knew each other le larz.. juz that .. till now i still cant differntiate who is ken n who is den...

went back hall for mass dance. danced wif hubert wa! .. hall was hot.. nv on air con.. everyone was lyke so sweaty by the time it ended.. but quite fun larz.. oh.. danced chori chori a lot of times also.. den cant rem when we went to LT3 for our kingdom time to do our cheerz n all dat.. hmmz.. aniwae.. went for lunch.. ..
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..went back to hall(while christian studentz went to meet mrs lim) did some cheerz n chicken dance n chori chori again.. (if i rem correctly) den i tink we all went to change to dark coloured clothing n went for mass games... put all our hps n wallets into shoe bagz lorz..mass games was rather fun.. our class veri enthu.. shout n shout..cheer n cheer.. so diff from wad i tot of s78.. at first it looked so dead.. everyone lyke the cannot gif a damn kind... BUT.. i was rong!..ha.. s78 rox! hmmz.. i was rather clean actually... coz we were one of the lucky ones who nid not be smeared by flour.. water or whipped cream... all thankz to hubert ..ha.. second time i actually wanted to go to box 6.. dne he insist go box 5.. so.. we went .. den box 6 tio lorz..ha.. heng sia.. den sharon... tsk tsk tsk.. come n smear dunno flour or cream on my face.. jinbao also... cmi.. ha.. n most of the ppl smelt lyke baby puke.. esp jiaxing.. hah.. n joo leng happily splashed water on me unknowingly lorz..ha..

* a relatively fun dae.. tho a bit disppoited i nv get in s76 wif yiting n na.. but.. at least s78 is not bad either! at first our cg wanted to go out eat.. but decided to call it off.. coz a lot of ppl were missing.. but sat nite should be goin for dinner or sth.. aniwae.. we have 2 yrs together.. so..take ur time...ha... plenty of chances to go out...glad i chose SA!.. ha.. sa sa .. the best the best.. sa the best! ha.. so crap.. lalalala.. the end..


n o.. anita n rena.. the two weaklings pls take care! n sz.. i dun regret goin to buy drink wif anita.....lorz!haha.. stupid flying plate..ha...n hor.. juz to gek u..ha.. my class dun have.. erm.. 16 scholarz! hahahaha!!!! blehz.. enjoy.. 2 yrs onli....muahhaha... *evil lufter..



quite miserable now.. juz finished a super long blog n3.. den my internet ex hang.. haiz.. no mood to rewrite. but.. ha.. i shall juz jot down in point form bahz... =) o well.. here goes..

* went to hall for a rather boring tok bout sa jc history n moral values etc... the teacher tried to kip us interested but to no avail.. so boring... n i m so disgusted i gotta be in loy fatt..haha

*went to classroom .. did role playing.. acted out circumstances where we were tested on integrity.. compassion.. perserverance etc.. quite ok la.. coz our og teacher miss wong was veri nice n all that..

*went back to the hall.. used one hour to make a "vehicle" which is a actually a stretcher .. which was later used for the race..

* had a sort of obstacle race..the onli diff was muz carry stretcher and a person on it while moving on to the diff stationz.. mainly.. we did.. push upz.. burpeez.. crunches.. climb up a wall.. monkey bar.. spider web.. go into water... played minesweeper.. .. o.. n ran 2.4... but not at one go la.. 2 rounds at a time.. so in other words.. itz juz pe in a fun-ner manner bahz

*went to hall wif anita amanda n rena.. found out postin results were out.. went back to our og.. den ppl heard us tokin bout posting n all that. .. n ppl flocked to the hall to see la.. after a while they were chased back..

*took OG picture... den.. we all sat in the field forming the words.. SAJC'05 ... rather boring la.. but sat there n tok wif og lorz.. ha.. den we saw a gal with a super red face.. haha... ok.. shant be mean.. after taking pic.. stupid julius la.. go ask ppl pass me all the paper to throw away.. n cant believe it.. ppl reali juz happily pass it to me..ha.. so cmi.. ended up wif a stack of white papers lorz..ha..

... the dae sort of ended ard here la.. quite fun.. tiring... a lil sunburnt.. but.. guess most of us enjoyed ourselves .. n.. lsn was so happi for rena todae.. all of us were lyke jumping n all that.. so excited 4 rena chan...ha.. glad we all made it back into the same sch!


hmmz. induction.. rather boring.. treat us lyke some concentration camp..ha.. so cock.. but ok la.. made us do jumping jackz ar.. squat down ar.. etc etc.. quite dumb.. but still alrite la.. after that we had icebreakers.. i tink our ogls were rather boring.. nv realli let us interact or much la.. lucky most of us from the same og .. so . still alrite la..

den we had some games.. hit tennis ball 5 times.. dribble ball.. frisbee.. skip 20 times..crawil thru hurdle..kiap a tennis ball between our kneez n reach the end.. hehe.. n our og cheated..heh.. after the games.. changed.. ate our "food rations" which were biscuits.. den i cannot tahan.. gum reali v pain.. so decided to take a green slip n go to the dentist.. sz's stomach also not feelin well.. but she was v nice la.. accompany me to the dentist .. but i was nice too la.. pay for the cab fare.. ok.. fine.. my dad was the nice one..ha.. oo.. n sz is evil..kip luffin at me when i drip the syrup on the table.. n wad was worst was she tot that her plate flew lorz.. cmi cmi.. o well.. hope that lil piece of gum stop swellin..if not muz cut off.. nono.. that wun happen....

ok.. being forced to rerite a petition..hha.. for rena chan.. hope she gets a call from sa soon.. n anita.. sorri.. me n lau forgot dat u were in sch til we were in the cab..haha! =)


went heeren's again todae.. wif fran n rena.. wanted to go watch swing girls.. but tix were sold out.. so sad lorz.. i was still waitin to eat popcorn..den went heerens walk a while.. went taka to eat rubbish.. den went back to heerens again to take np.. cant believe fran lyke nv take np for millions of yrs lidat.. n stupid rena.. choose the ghost bg.. n put me wif long hair.. so scary.. now i m scared to look in the mirror lorz.. tsk! after that.. as usual.. we went to the slipper shop.. haha.. took backviews (lsns should get wad i mean.. if not.. .. nothin to sae liao)

took a bus to raffles city.. went city link to n ate at that shop sellin crepes n stuffz.. the calamari there taste lyke shit.. so dun go there eat ok.. it tasted lyke some rotten rubber bands. so gross lorz..hate it! yuckz! fran went to meet his fren, aka, the cow.. haa.. so evil.. den me n rena went shopping.. bot a new shirt for 37degressz.. rena bot a shirt from some shop.. dunno wad name.. $6 those kind.. den u go dig n find ur shirt..ha.. waste so much time digging there..so cmi.. O! .. n i got ignored by rena coz i refused to go eat kfc wif her.. n bought bread talk for dinner.. coz todae good fri.. shouldnt eat meat.. tho i ate a lil ..hee.. forget ma.. hmmz.. thatz about it.. n o! i missed half an hour of my 9pm show.. nv see the shuai ge.. tsk!


wadz 19+1? .. yap.. 20.. thatz my new og.. but it dominated mainly by ex 0g19 peepz.. there is giang, duwane,caron,meena,ily,piak,xavier,jessie,woeiling,celest,weber,sean,n me.. hopefully didnt miss out anione.. ..made a new fren called valerie.. from saint hilda's.. coz i asked her why her skirt look so weird.ha

todae was mostly talks and all that... rather.. todae was juz lyke a repeat of the 1st 3 mths tok la.. den my fone rang lorz.. so paiseh..ha.. well.. juz hope all things go well.. get into a cg n mix well n make new frenz and all that.. but i quite lyke og 20.. coz got new ppl.. not all the same old peepz..

n hope rena getz in sa... i bet the whole lsn wans her back in sa.. we all missed her todae u noe.. no rena there hor.. veri wierd.. coz.. suddenly no one to irritate us n poke us n sae evil stuffz.. sad rite.. at east she msged a poke.. so not that bad.. but we cant tok much..coz sa n jj dun mix!hahaha .. (thatz wad rena saez hor.. ) hmmmz.. n o.. my mum.. so cmi(QING!) .. she went to spore poly to work in cafe la.. but she insists it is ngee ann.. c is for CMI! haha..



heyhey... woke up by phone calls .. so irritating.. ring n ring n ring.. until i had to resort stuffing my fone under my pillow n snooze for another 15 mins b4 i finally took off from my comfy bed n advanced to the computer.. n during that whole process rite.. the fone.. was still.. ringing.

went online.. checked my posting.. went sa.. no feelin eh.. maebe coz san they all alreadi told me they went.. so should be get in also.. n as for rena.. call her.. refuse to pick up. sms her, refuse to reply.. al of us so worried for her, to the extent that we didnt go back to slp tho we were slpy n rushed over to her house asap, walked there.. so hot! den waited outside her house, but she tow hway without syrup nv open u noe! so we tot she was in sch, took cab there... on e cab, den she msg me sae wad wan go watch swing galz.. nearly fainted in the taxi lorz..

den we all met up.. after runt appealed, went to buy uniform. go orchard, ate swensenz, wen to HEErens to take np coz there got.. erm.. nice slipperz n np machines wor.. saw jeff wang n ezann(again) hmm.. bot facial mask.. den sz left.. shop a while more san left.. den me n rena went to cine n took another np..ha.. so cmi lorz.. where got ppl use white pen rite against white bg.. ben jiu shi ben! took 502 wif rena.. she went clementi.. saw jeff n ezann again.. another lesson of fate! ha.. the end


todae.. another slack dae.. tink nearly everyone didnt go for lessons.. erm.. tokin bout j1s.. aniwae.. after sch.. went ikea.. shopped for san's pressie.. from one present become 3.. den bot paper at ginza n went over to shouzhen's house to paint n all that. .. so fun.. i love doin craft.. n i realise anita.. cmi..haha(qing!!haha) den we each painted out portion of the presents while sz started priting the pics n all that.. fun nia..

den watched a lil tv.. my dad came fetch me.. so nice.. has been ferrying me a lot lately.. realli muz thank him.. if not i would be dead tired when i reach home.. so.. thankz dad! n mum( who tagged along wif him).. o well.. rather worried for anita n rena's posting tomoorrow.. i seriously hope they can get into sa.. even if they nid appeal.. that they can appeal in.. n we will all go celebrate san's bdae happily tomorrow.. but no matter how things turn out.. LSn will alwaez be lsn.. n nothin will change that fact.. all all things turn out fine tomorow.. god bless everyone!! =)

~if u tink u can.. u can!~


o well.. i feel empty.. voided of all emotions of all sorts.. i feel lyke a bottle of water spilt upon the ground.. i dun feel sad.. not happi either.. dunno la.. juz feel.. nothin. dun even noe y i m bloggin when i m lyke emotionless la..ha.. tink i m mad..

oo.. i feel fat.. it is one of my fat daez .. shall go excercise.. didnt noe tues noe posting wed muz report to that sch le.. i tot next week den report.. but guess life wun be so slack animore.. buck up marie! yawnz... tired.. drained.. mad.. empty.. dying.. nitez ppl.. marie's goin crazy..haha.. juz for tonite. =)



went to sch todae to get my amath tb from zae de.. joan WAS supposed to go wif me.. but in the end.. as usual.. pangseh me.. n go buy bag.. tsktsktsk.. alwaez lidat.. last min summore.. arghh.haha.. suan le.. hmmz... after that.. went home.. decided not to rot at home n start tinking of... ...

so i called rena.. den went to je to meet michelle piak n her..go snow city... n they make this poor pai kah gal walk so fast..ha.. coz we were goin to be late for that session.. but turned out that that session was sold out n we bot the 3.30 one.. went for a stimulator ride.. so ex.. $4 for a 5 mins ride..ha.. den rotted a while n went into snow city.. the place is realli freezing cold.. my hands were so numb.. nose was red also..ha.. den we went down this slope thing la.. so fun..haha.. took pics.. rena made a lil ice kachang.. so cmi..(haha.. qing! everytime i sae cmi i will tink of u n wanna luff..haha)

came home took out the guaze thing on my wound.. got a bit of pus.. coz wear jeans ma. den kip rubbing.. lucky my dad was nice n fetched me home.. yawnz.. .. o well.. thatz it..


marie is dying.. dying.. but.. veri full!.. hah.. juz ate 4 popcorn chicken.. 2 pieces of rojak thing.. n a curry puff from old chang kee.. woohoo.. but still.. i kip fallin these few daez.. i fell down.. now.. i m fallin sick.. n the stupid rubberband to put on my braces.. so pain.. cant open my mouth much lorz.. wonder how to eat.. guess hav to take it out when eating.. so uncomfy..

packed room todae.. that explains y i got flu n headache.. dusty ma.. den sneeze sneeze sneeze until flu n headache le.. n i m seriously gettin fatter liao lorz.. is not paranoid or anithing.. coz fall down rite.. den . cant go swimming.. cant go jogging.. den i juz kip stuffing food into my mouth coz i m so super bored.. haha.. interesting march holidaez.. o.. hope n pray that lsn all go same jc ya?!.. we sure will =).. tokin to sz now.. she is lsning.. to tink she used to insisst she wasnt part of us.. haha.. aniwae.. .. wan to yawn.. cant yawn la.. mouth cant open so wide..ha.. so farni.. cant even yawn.. cant wait for my braces to get plucked out of my mouth.. hope it'll be real soon!


i watch all the leaves
pack up their things
you can feel winter inside every breeze
and im scared
of how quickly things can change

but then
i think of ur smile
i tink of ur luff
i tink on the good times we had
and im reassured
cause they'll always stay the same
though seasons may change,
our friendship will remain..
exactly the same ......
....will they? *ponderz..(this one is i add de hor... heh)

this is the v nice ecard that ws sent me.. hen hao ting.. veri cute also..ha.. thank u! ..aniwae.. nothin much to blog bout todae la.. coz i juz lazed ard todae.. tink i m such a weakling.. a lil cut n bruises n some skin come out i also cannot tahan..ha.. to me .. itz v pain..ha.. cmi cmi.. didnt go for band todae.. didnt go swim.. didnt go out.. haiz.. sian.. cant even go joggin.. sian.. ahhhh!!!.. dying of boredom.. shall pack my room a lil.. itz in a .. okok state.. juz that.. itz time for the old bks to be gone ..itz taking up too much space.. o. have been made to play www.barbie.com with my lil cousin coz she stayed in my house since monday.. sz sayz it fun.. ha.. go try lorz..

the end


went to heerens with rena runt.. go take np wif a duck.. huh!..haha.. heng nv late.. if not i will be ignored by rena chan foreva..ha.. duckie advertise for his shop wor.. flip flops n shirt all from there.. n rena chan! cmi..haha.. hint to me wad to put in the np..lucky i smart.. got the hint.... n the time limit nv count down.. so we got unlimited time... den joan came.. again.. she had to msg me twice.. call me 3 times b4 i ..erm.. responded.. paiseh la.. realli nv hear ma..

oo.. i m goin to save money.. wanna buy a slipper.. white de.. or maebe orange one..ha.. veri nice.. but 32.90.. ex sia.. n when i wanna buy. rena runt will raise her hand n be the first to accompany me. why? i dunno.. coz.. she lykes to shop in heerens..hahaha!

went to eat suki sushi.. ordered so much lorz.. so full.. fat liao le la.. haha.. i m now broke..left wif a buck.. n 30 dollarz taka voucher.. spent 20 buying rubbish stuffz.. bot 2 boxes.. 4 files.. a chop... yap.. 20 buckz gone lidat.. den went back heerens wak walk a while more..

** retribution!! this morning i will still luffing about francis fallin down in his campus.. n guess wad.. on my way home.. i fell!..ha.. i didnt see the kerb.. tink i was daydreaming.. den fall lorz.. at first no blood.. den after a while den i felt the pain.. now i got a lil cut.. a lil abrasion .. n an orbakat.. such a klutz.. pain nehz.. but still ok la.. so paiseh.. heng i tink no one saw me fall.. maebe a few malays at the void deck..haha... regret luffing at fran.. so sway lorz.. but luckily.. i alreadi done my shopping.. so... o well.. another dae has passed!



PHOBIAs... tink everyone has at least a phobia or sth rite.. unless ok.. u r .. erm.. a super brave n courageous fella or sth.. but even den.. i still tink that no one in the world has no phobias at all.. some ppl have fear of the dark.. some are afraid of being alone... otherz.. scared to be left on the shelf..

for me.. i m afraid of ghosts, scary things, crocs appearing from dark dark waters... injections.. n last but not least .. the plucking of teeth.. still rem when i was young.. bout 5 or 6.. went to extract a tooth from my mouth.. i screamed n screamed n cried so loudly that the other children outside left the dental clinic.. coz they were too afraid.. den my dad called home asking my bros to pray for me..ha.. come to tink of it now. so farni..ha.. i was alreadi so cmi last time..haha

hmm.. tink for galz n guyz at this age hor.. the thing we fear most is that we dun have a gf or bf.. m i rite to sae that?!.. well.. maebe for most ppl la.. who wouldnt wan someone nice to care n love u rite?! ha.. ok.. well.. this marks the end of.. PHOBIAs..haha!! tata!.. tink i m mad..




hmmz.. first.. i didnt noe wan go jj or sa.

now i dunno wan to continue joining sa band notz. i wan join coz band realli rox.but at the same time.. it is rather time consuming.. considering the fact that sa shifting.. by the time band practices end.. dunno will reach home at wad time.den everytime i wanna go out on sats wif my frenz n all that.. i cant.. coz there is band prac.. haiz.. dunno la..

but if i dun join band.. wad can i join?! wad Wad WAd WAD!!.. ava ar? haha.. maebe.

confused.

dunno wad to do .


went for band prac todae.. wear 3/4 jeans n tee shirt.. look lyke i goin market lorz.. haha.. but nvm.. the market is a nice place =) got food.. haha..

after band i flew to jp.haha.. met up wif von qing n zae.. na was super late la..haha.. cmi.. den von n qing sugested a pink heart pillow that looks lyke a radio.. i tot it was so stupid.. a pillow.. but actually it was realli a radio u noe! so amazing..ha.. in the end we bot it for him.. hope he lykes it.. hah .. oh ya.. ate a red bean japanese pancake.. it tasted so terrible.. but to francis i tink it would be nice.. coz it was not sweet n got the eeky red bean de.. so erxin lorz.. should have bot choc or cheese de lorz.. eat until i wanna puke..

after that.. took mrt to tanah merah... so far.. den took cab to that place called national service resort and country club.. me n na were waitinf for 6 0 clock den eat ma.. den wa.. 6 liao.. we went to eat lorz.haha..so hungry.. food quite nice la.. tink we lyke take a lot..but nvm..den went to da ma diao.. ha.. 3 player de..sop scary.. we played wif erm.. dun wan sae.. veri kong bu! haha.. n i got a PURPLE cd holder lorz.. so gek.. stupid na kip luffin at me.. coz i told her if i get that sexually deprived colour i will faint.. but aniwae.. peigee v nice.. exchanged n gave me the orange one..hah :)... so tired now.. forced to call rena.. ha.. if not later she will start her be it-s n all that..haha.. cmi.. n qing ling! i noe u r reading tho u dun tag!!.. is CANOT MAKE IT .. not seemee!!hahahha!!


U know i cant smile without u
cant smile without u
i cant luff n i cant sing
im finding it hard to do anithing

I feel sad when ure sad when ure sad
feel glad when ur glad
if u onli knew wad im goin thru
I juz cant smile without u

U came along juz lyke a song
and brightened my day
who would've believe u were part of a dream
now it all seems light yrs away


u noe i cant smile without u
cant smile without U



happi marie, happi rena, happi shouzhen.. anita dunno hapi or not...ha.. the three of us are happi.. y? hehe.. lsn-ish reasons.. i tink from todae onwards. shouzhen will lyke badminton rackets.. rena will love cranes.. esp green n red ones.. . n i will lyke.. erm.. veg?! haha..

went for econs lecture todae.. but it was for the arts fac ppl.. so stupid.. i brainlessly wore the gomes shirt todae(red sleeves) while the others in the audi wear romanis de(green) o.. dunno how cum my econs tutor know i skipped lecture.. econs rox! ha!n the econs teacher veri cute.. he said sth that i tink is veri amusing.. here goes: tink tink tink, tog we muz tink! .. i tink itz veri farni la.. esp when he read it out.. so cute.

den after econs.. went to fold cranes...lorZ!.. rena teach yk how to fold..the ugly ugly cranes.. he fold lyke.. erm.. some flower.. den sz teach anita how to fold de nice nice cranes.. but anita cmi lorz.. learn dunno how mani million yrs also aiyo.. but i tink she got it in the end.. oh.. i love rena's fone!! got my fav backview n another blur blur pic.. ha.. how i love the cafe. one dae i will take pic of the bag.. n i seriously tink anita is better off working in a gou3 zai3 dui4 lorz.. compared to me..

stomach felt weird todae.. got sharp pains.. dunno wad happened.. den went anchor point to eat.. we saw the channel u guy n gal.. ezanne and ben.. veri pretty n v handsome.. took pic wif them.. they were veri frenly.. =)


wadz meant to be will be.. wadz not meant to be will not be.. was watching jie da huan xi.. bout princess sha sha tryin to go against destiny or sth n not marry lord wan.. can humanz reali control their own fate or iz everything predestined by god? sometimes i realli ponder upon this..

i realise i love a lot of ppl.. love exists in mani form.. not juz the love kind of love.. erm.. get it? there is also other kinds of llove lyke brother-sister, love for ur parents, love for frenz, n love for mani other things lyke ur fav food , sport n so on n so forth... i love my parents, my brothers, my band frenz, lsn, OGmates, CGmates, smiggles(my rabbit), food, running. ..

i love goin to jog.. two reasons:
1) can jian fei
2) can fa xie

but dunno y.. cant seem to find time to jog.. or the energy to do so.. maebe thatz why i m growing fatter.. eating non stop.ha.. sometimes i ask myself.. y do i lyke to jog.. tho itz tiring n all that.. perhaps is coz. . sometimes when faced wif difficulties.. i tend to wanna run away n not face it.. but i hope.. one dae i will stand up to all problems n overcome them n not run animore..( bt will still jog hor.. for the first reason)

watched howl's moving castle todae.... howl reminds me of someone i noe. .. howl is shuai, cute, somewhat serious( to me la..) but deep inside he has his own problems n fears to face.. ok.. maebe is i tink too much la..haha.. o.. the movie was rather nice.. but still spirited away is nicer.. more of the WOW! kind..ha.. this one is the awwww... ha.. i lyke speakin my own funni lang.. dunno if u all understand notz la.. but.. nvm.. got band tomorow.. tink i goin to slp .. nitezzz


o well.. feel as tho i got a lot of stuffz to blog la.. but.. guess i beta not pen it down it.. i'll juz kip it private n write it in my diary.. tho riting is a lil more tedious.. but at least i can speak more freely without restrictionz of ani kind if i rite it in my dear lil diary that i bot lyke 2 or 3 yrs back.. actually cant believe i managed to continue riting for so mani yrs.. norm i stop after a yr or sth..

one dae i will open my diary n rem all the past happiness, sadness, how much fun i have had in sec n jc life and all that.. i do not wanna forget this enjoyable period of my life.. guess riting a diray is rather cool n meaningful after all :)

juz wanna sae.. had fun in the cafe.. folding paper cranez.. for every paper crane we fold.. song he rice will donate a bowl of rice to the old or needy or wadeva.. not too sure. .. so .. ppl .. nothin to do at home? grab some paper .. fold cranes.. den pass to rena runt. okok?! :)

stay happi everyone..



iz tryin to help my frenz realli that difficult?
y cant i seem to be able to help in a way everyone seemz to be able to? i feel as tho i m making my frenz more miserable n pissed wif me liddat.. if that is the case.. i rather be a selfish brat n not help animore.. will it be betta this way?!
hopefully.


mani a times ppl ask themselves.. " what if" they had done sth else.. or "what if" this didnt happen... ppl ask themselves this question after they had done sth..sth that they could not change. they would then ask themselves ..what if they had chosen the other way. will things still turn out the same way?!

often i ask myself.. what if i didnt go home to have dinner that dae n went out.. would wad have happened now have happened too?! i know that i'll nv ever get to know the answer .. i can picture the scenario that i wan in aniway, coz i'll nv know if i was rite or rong. n that's y .. when we do things.. anithin in fact..we should do it after careful consederation... a simple gesture ,a word u say,a refusal to sth may lead to a drastic changes, may it be gd or bad. so.. we muz do things that we know we will nv regret.. alwaez tink twice.

i searched nearly 200 hundred pages to find it.
but i nv did
i tot internet had no boundaries to findin stuffz
o well, now i tink otherwise.
izzit realli not for me?
how i wish i can find it.
give up
hold on
i dunno... i seriously dun.
whether to gif up or not..
i better consider carefully..
i dun wanna have "what if-s" occuring once more..
bt still.. there is this tingling inside me
that tells me that
i wanna find it!


o well.. itz gonna be the last time the band peepz of the first three months will be together.. aniwae.. the concert yesterdae was somewhat a success la..first half was rather shaky.. a lil unstable.. coz everyone was tensed up n scared la.. but second half was good i tink.. took so mani picz wif band peepz yest.. veri fun.. juz that lester kip coming into nearly every pic..

o.. glosz tot me sth new..fit=fuck it! ... ha.. juz that sch dun allow vulgarities n all that.. so use short form.. ha.. i hope the eupho peepz will all stay in sa!... after concert yest.. reached sch ard 10 plus 11.. by the time we left was nearly 12 le.. den me joel jeremy weisheng n josephine went to paisr panjang to eat.. den we went over to joel's house to stay.. but in the end i stayed over at rena's place coz veri near also.. i slpt in a forsaken room.. so dusty.. now i got flu le.. ha.. cant stop sneezing.. lalala... registered for sch le.. hope can stay in sa.. :)


was reading thru teens.. saw this page .. veri interesting.. tellin u bout the foodsutffz that r good for ur skin.. one of them are.. Carrots- ur natural protection against skin cancer..haha. see.. told u all carrotz good le.. drink more carrrot-orange ok.. good for skin ;)

oh ya.. haven reg for wad schs i wanna go yet.. dunno if i realli wanna stay in sa.. coz the dist will be realli taxing.. esp on the second yr where all the tests start coming up.. furthermore.. having a cca lyke band would mean even more stress in my 2nd year.. haiz.. so i dunno.. but i wana stay in sa.. the main thing that makes me wanna stay is the band.. o well.. who noez.. i may put jj as my first choice.. convenient, near, n not bad. aniwae.. hope rena gets in sa with the appeal.. n anita too.. sz as well... perhaps me too..

oh ya.. as for me.. tink i m growing fatter dae by dae.. eat so much.. time to go excercise a bit after concert or i'll turn into a big fat pig.. oink oink.. stop eating la marie..!! lalalala.. tomorow's the concert.. hope it will be a successs!! so excited nehz! sa band rox! esp the euphoz...hehe





hmmz.. got back results yest.. i got 12.. not happi.. but not sad too..haha.. no feeling.. surprisingly.. i tot i would cry or sth.. but ..ha.. it didnt hapen :) aniwae.. was juz tinking.. if onli i worked harder..would i have got better? but since itz alreadi over.. ha.. dun care le..

got a new pair of shoes yest... at og.. wif rena n shouzhen.. after that ate kfc n i went back to sa for band prac.. till nearly 10 ar. so late .. veri scary nehz.. veri dark.. sala even said got lechers hanging out that area.. heng joe came to fetch us.. tho his driving is a bit ..erm...haha..

aniwae.. for those who did well in o-s.. congratz!! n for those who didnt tink they did veri well.. at least u tried.. n .. wadz over is over.. no use brooding over it.. juz work harder for the mani tests to come!!! *smilez*