usually.. we see a rainbow after the rain
what about after like super super super heavy downpours? will a rainbow still appear?

aniways..
today is learn a "new" word day. words that are used each day.. sometimes ends up as words being routinely and flippantly used without prior consideration of its meanings anymore..
in other words... words are being.. somewhat symbolic. but yet. void of meanings.
so tonite
miss zheng will teach u ppl some new words that appear in our daily life
but yet.
so many ppl mis-use it. sometimes not just once.. but constantly. but of cos there are ppl who use it as how it realli means.. =)

TRUST:
–verb (used without object)






though its freaking tiring to wake up early in the morn to rush essay cos all u have is 3 hours of todae to do .. b4 gg for band n den jean's bdae party..
n for sundae u have to study for the test on mon .. n the content in each chap is like. wa!
but
tho emo-ness comes at night

in the morn
i feel refreshed n happy once more
n its a great feeling!!! maybe its the sun or the nice sky n clouds. or that the haze has reduced a bit today..
its like a
"rise n shine to a brand new day!"
n u do a little dance ..wriggle ard.. n have a nice breakfast with a nice cup of tea from SCHOOL's canteen a..
(Yes sat morn n im in lib doing work if not i'll b snoring at home)

to b happy
one must learn to love everyone ard them..
to be sincere.
to show true care n concern
to be there when one needs them
to b an idiot n sae stupid things to make a bit of laughter seep into ppl's lives
to let some things be.
to not expect too much for everything. just enuff to get u by is great! =)
to let small things amuse u
to not let bigger things ruin ur day.. after if u frown u use up more muscles. waste engery. end up eat more. grow fat. n waste money buy more food. haha! n not like its gg to change anithing.. haha

the least u expect from others. the less disappointed u will b
n the happier n more carefree u'll feel!!
lke ur soaring over the ridges..
leaving this mad world behind..
n enter into ur world which got hidden behind the walls cos some ppl just try too hard to fit in or sth that they forget ultimately who they are.. or .. were..
so its time to defy gravity!
fly into ur own world n rekindle ur passion n who u r,n let ur true colours shine through!
haha.. playing with song titles. retarded. but .. wadeva

enjoy ur day everyone!
skips ard =)






its been so cold today that i had goosebumps the WHOLE DAY!
lol
aniwae.. angora rabbits r quite cute hor. they got this innocent messy look.. lol
miss smiggles. skippy.. bt i know i dun have time for ani more rabbits..

this recess week passed so fast. n its like.. so sian..
prob the most sian recess ever!
i wan to buy many nicenice rubber bands to tie my hair with!
i wan little flowers.. etc etc..

cant help but feel sian
sometimes
u realli dun wan to
u try lei
but anithing slightly related to it
u feeel irritated
u feel like they have more similarities
n stupid lil things la

if u r a guy
u can prob dun read
cos guys dun get it
not that girls demean u ppl
but realli..
guys' brains r realli weird n insensitive n nonchalent.. comparing it to girls' brains..
maybe girls r oversensitive
but yet
guys who r oversensitive r kind of irritating
so
how lei
haha

ate a cornetto mini!
nice
but made me feel even colder
n the haze is freaking irritating cos its as though u have cataracts on ur eyes when u dun
yawns
supposed to be churning out essay now
but.. so far
zero inspiration lei. cham to the max

aniwae. bu zhi bu jue.. drag from jan to now. got 10 months lo!
haha
so long hor
gives myself a pat on the back for the effort.






recess week is like almost over
sigh..
didnt reali go out
didnt realli have fun
didnt realli study
wonder wad did i do.
n OMG
so fast...
FRIDAY LE!

anione wans to eat macs/kfc bf tom?
haha!




breakfast on wed mornings!
but sad. next wed i gotta work at sdc :(.. nvm. earn some money. freaking broke! lalala
we talked more than we ate.. like talked damn a lot! its as though they were still in band. cos wed since sec sch.. has always been band day!
btw
CHECK OUT JOOLENG"S FAT FACE IN THIS PIC! FAT
finally took a pic of this with my cam.
so cute rite!
a plant outside my house! some idiot draw a face on it
n its so cute
i cant help but luff at its retardedness! lol!

at the nice thai food place
though e food is nice
do go there when u r not starving or dying anitime
cos u have to wait quite long for the nice food to gorge urselves with..
nice long wait. HAHA
n the milk tea not nice . . so sweet. no teh gao xiu dai. FAIL!




anita agrees that marie is less bubbly than b4
cos of the many small incidents etc
from hp stolen.
money stolen.
lousy shit excounter at stupid kuching at the sword house.
freakshit flasher at the stupid long kang there.
sch getting boring-er
everyone seems evil n zek ark
n many false fronts

somehow makes me tink how the world has changed
or maybe. my perspective have changed a lil

used to tink.. that everyone surely has some goodness in them. no matter how small it is
that humans r nv meant to b evil etc
but now
i see a random guy at nite at the void deck
my heart beats v fast.. n im like. o shit o shit. is he some flasher. some sick guy or sth..
or just now when i was on the bus
my bag wasnt zipped
n the past marie wouldnt be like. omg will ppl steal my money
cos then, she still had loads of trust in humanity.

where did the trust go? down the drain?

maybe like wad anita saidd
everyone goes through some crap period in their life
jaded.
even wthout anita confirming it
i can feel that some joy in me has slipped away
leaving a not so wide smile on the face
though im not exactly sure why.. or for wad reason..

but yet again
at least there is still the smile! =)
n
tomorrow will always be better!
n im sure i'll have faith n trust in humankind again
if e ppl surrounding me r great. surely all these lost trust n faith will find their way back

aniwae. today wh said a funny thing
n i still tink its v funny
i told him i wan to cut my hair
like real short
like guy cut
den he say
like mushroom head?
.. cut like the "jing zhen gu" la..
n i burst out luffing
its quite funny to tink of it..
hhaha!

joke of the day!
laughs!!!




FIRST DAY OF RECESS WEEK!
sianness has set in
just by packing my notes
is enuff to b sian.. haha!
stappling.. shuffling.. filing. .
omg
luan qi ba chao!
n to tink of the essays to write for 319, 301. is even more sian!
ah!
but nvm..
at least
recess week is here!
ahhaha
i wan to go out n play! hahaha!



new balance 10km
FINISHED

though we have our own different definitions
its a promise for the next run.. we'll run side by side!!! ho0oked fingers!!!
this 10km seemed way longer.. cos of the trail.. the stupid sand which i hate.. haha!
n it was the time of the month

but yey
at least we raced to the finish line tog!
tired.
hot weather
n woke up like 5am? haha!

saw horsies after the run
n went to ikea for lunch!
had the mushroom soup. it reminded of rena's soup. cos it was so sweeet! so onli can finish half..
but they nv totally blend the mushrooms n onions.. haha!




happy birthday mummmy! =)


Leo: Kick Up Your Heels

When Leo is blue, they should be with friends, not shut up in isolation. Fire sign Leo burns brightly in the company of others. A ticket to a play would refresh you, or a walk through a museum. Go dancing at a club.

Treat yourself to a good meal at a restaurant (make it an elegant, well-reviewed place--Leo is depressed by shabby surroundings). Eating out always cheers up a Leo. While you're down or worried, wear something new, clothing that is well designed in a becoming color. The complements you receive will surely give you a lift! Since you are a bit competitive, stay away from those people who make you feel deficient in any way, whether in looks, status, or achievement.

Leo is a gregarious, big-hearted sign which needs plenty of affection. Don't discount this now! The more love and support you feel from your significant other and from friends, the faster you will recover from whatever has rocked you.

Leo is a larger-than-life, dramatic sign but you could be prone to over-dramatizing your plight. If so, you could be unnecessarily increasing your panic level. Take a moment to ask yourself. Find out!

Sometimes you are a contradiction unto yourself. While your fire element loves action, your fixed nature tends to stop you from instituting the innovative steps you should take. As a Leo, you loathe being told what to do, even when it's excellent and well-meaning advice, criticism or points you may have overlooked. Be careful of the Not-Invented-Here mindset. What does that mean? When those around you urge you to consider a certain point, if you usually say to yourself "Hell, if I didn't come up with that idea, it couldn't possibly be any good..." and wave it off automatically, that's a bad sign!

In the meantime, plan a brunch so that everyone special in your life can surround you. Bask in the good feelings your friends provide and listen to their words of advice. Be sure to order in food--don't cook. Leo doesn't like to fuss. Or make it a supper where everyone brings their specialty and you provide the beverages.

If you can travel to someplace warm, so much the better--Leo is ruled by the Sun, and rarely happy in cold or rainy weather. While bronzing on a beautiful beach, new solutions will come to you. No cash? Warmth may still be only a step away. Get to a health club and relax in a steamy sauna, step into a warm Jacuzzi, or swim in a heated Olympic-sized pool.

If you've got a good stereo system, use it now, for like Taurus, Libra, and Pisces, your sign is highly sensitive to music. Put on your earphones and turn up the volume. Bond with your music. Drink it in. Later, take a walk over to the music store and stock up on a few new CDs you've wanted to buy. Stereo on the fritz? Buy a ticket to a concert. Or see a dazzling opera, even if you have to be in the standing room section. Leo adores rich spectacle. The point is that you should find ways to pamper yourself. Remind yourself that you are king of the jungle.

Generally, Leo isn't very sports-oriented, unless it is a social sport like tennis. Solitary sports don't interest you. Your sign rules the heart, so your circulation could suffer in times of anxiety. You may find yourself cold, and huddled under blankets. Taking an aerobics class to fine-tune your circulatory system would be a great idea, and at the gym you are likely to run into people you know--all the better!

Leo tends to be more creative than physical, for your sign needs regular expression of feelings. Try your hand at writing a screenplay, short story or learn to paint. A fabulous idea would be to join an amateur theater club--you may discover you have real talent! Any emotion you are feeling now can be poured into your role. Leos make the best actors of all the signs, for the sign rules the natural 5th house.

The 5th house also rules children, so get out of your self-absorption (one of Leo's pitfalls) and do something for a children's charity, perhaps by volunteering for children's literacy, or if you have your own children, doing something special for them. Kids are as important to Leo as they are to Cancer. Children keep you smiling, refreshed, and distracted long enough to let you unwind.

Finally, remember that confidence is the key to your personality, and if it is shaken, you won't be able to move forward as smoothly as you might wish. Being a fixed sign, change is hard for you to adjust to, at least initially. Surround yourself with only your most supportive friends. Reminisce over your biggest victories.

Find the common thread in all your successes, no matter how small, to discover your personal formula for success. Keeping your faith in yourself and feeling pride in your accomplishments is the single most important factor in turning around your situation. Continue to reward yourself with small treats as you take steps which are hard for your fixed nature to do. You'll be well on the way to your old jovial self--and holding court!

from today
i shall try
to look at everything in a new perspective
realli
if u see ani more emo posts.
slap me! wake me up!
lol

im happy that i have so many things
let me just list out.. hmm. .10?

im happy that i have a family. when some ppl dun.
im happy that i love my boyfriend
im happy that i have frens who care for me ( anita rena joan n many many more!)
im happy to wake up though i dun wan to.. to go to sch cos i have the chance to do so
im happy that i can wake up each day .. cos im alive
im happy i switched from engine to soci. tho i miss my engine frens..
im happy that though i have fat legs. they support me when i play badminton n when i go run! hahaha!

im happy that though i have a lot of moles on my face... i have a mou li jie mei hua ( rena chan! HAA!) n that my frens can laugh at my moles n be merry

im happy that my boyfriend lives far away cos liddat i can explore kovan area! n not get stuck in jurong

im happy that i have frens living near me .. can jio n eat supper

im happy my pri sch fren quit band in pri sch n she plays the eupho. so i took over her place. tho its nt a v demure instru for a girl. eupho section ppl always seem to end up at buddies ( vanessa, louis jeremy.. omg. haven met them for ages. .yong an .. zhiyong.. qingling.. zaewe.. )

im happy that i dun have a lot of money in my bank.. cos it teaches me not to be extravagant

im happy that my bf gave me $10 to take cab in case i dun have enuff money =)

im happy that anita pei me just now for dinner .. though she was tired n i skipped lesson

im happy that im meeting big head joo n bushy heng tomorrow to watch eat love n pray.

im happy that yiting clement guangliang jogs with me every wed.

im happy i have many soft toys to slp with me.. cos when i was young i usually sneeze too much when toys r ard me.. now. im used to it.

im happy that ...

i actually have so mani things to be happy about! =) =)
yey!
cheers!
so if one day u actually find that u r like damn emo
come on
list all the things u r happy about
even the smallest puniest thing!
there's surely sth worth being happy about!!! =)




OMG! francis just told me he bot tickets to watch RIVERDANCE with his frens!
ahah!
was still so sad that i knew of the vienna boys choir concert too late.. so didnt get to go
ah!
i wan to watch riverdance!!!
its in dec tho..
anione wans to watch it tooooo?????

DATE 30 Nov - 12 Dec 2010 Tue - Fri, 8pm Sat, 2pm & 8pm Sun, 2pm & 7pm

DURATION Approx 1 hr 40 mins INTERVAL Approx 20 mins

VENUE(S) Sands Theater

TICKET PRICE (Exclude Booking Fee) Tue-Thur & Sun Evening Shows Premium - S$160 Standard - S$140, S$120, S$95, S$70 Tue 30 Nov, Fri & Sat Evening, Sat & Sun Matinee Shows Premium - S$170 Standard - S$150, S$130, S$110, S$85 i wan go i wan go i wan go !! but must buy fast! v scared no more tix! ah! riverdance is coming to singapore!!! =)

was attempting to do my 319 readings..
but
i was constantly
waiting
so instead of checking up meanings of the horrible sexual terminologies that i dunno in the readings.. or like the other chim words..
i decided to check out this word

wait.
–verb (used without object)




i just deleted my emo entry on accident.
damn


learnt about like how sex is related to gender roles that we r supposed to play. like how a guy SHOULD b .. masculinity n etc. n females should be feminine.. n like guys r supposed to be more macho.. stronger. girls r the weaker links.. or how is each gender supposed to act in certain roles.. like in bgr .. etc.. etc heteronormativity..
somehow this song ties in with it.



If I Were A Boy


[Verse]
If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in morning
Threw on what I wanted and go

Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
Cause they stick up for me

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

[Verse]
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they think I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

[Verse]
It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
And don't understand
How it feels to love a girl
Some day would wish were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

Cause you're just a boy.....


gorge urself with ice cream
grab some bars of chocolate
eat some oil filled stuff
talk n scream it out loud

n all will b
happily ever after =)



was nearly a crybaby today
..
nearly cried listening to a song which is SO SO NICE

den
today at the market at 500 plus
this old man fell as the table beside beside mine
so so sad
his face hit the floor first
glad nothing much happened to him
other den his nose n mouth bleed.. n he was like in a state of shock
see already heartached...
..
den came online n saw the pics of mr lee n his wife
n suddenly feel so sad..
like wad happens when a loved one passes on ..
esp for him .. she's like a loved one for so many yrs..
..
n ..
today. i closed the car door on my grandma's hands.. on accident of cos
didnt know her fingers were at the front car door..
felt so so so so so so SO terrible... :(
heng its the rubber part that kiaped her.. n she's ok
if not.. im gg to be guilty for i dunno how long
sigh




I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and I stumbled out of bed
and dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose and a note that said
'Somebody Loves You'

But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly

Take a look at the ordinary Don't need to look at Paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise

I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat
and Bought me a chicken sandwich To take home for tea

But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places,
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and I start to fly

Take a look at the ordinary Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise
Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side
Take a look at the ordinary Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise

Everyday can be legendary
Every minute,
an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise


I woke up this morning Feeling kind of new


pizza anione?
yey .. rena! rem we went to west coast CC to learn baking? haha! this one i use the recipe for curry bun! just that i put raisins.. n i put luncheon meat n cheese.. chen gong!
tada
my helper cum slave! muahaha

Friday, October 2, 2010

my mother rocks.

despite feeling so bu shu fu this morn
n upset that my hammies passed away yest
i saw an sms from my mother.
n this is wad she typed
"sorry last night make u unhappy. cheep up. the small rat went to heaven happily. god bless"

n it made me giggle in bed cos i saw it when i just woke up
cheeep up.. lol.
n she still tinks im rearing a small rat. not a hamster.
this lil sms reali made my day
tho ..
the others didnt.
totally didnt.
gg to rot at home today. sian