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Sunday, February 26, 2012

at punggol water park. my new desktop background. =)




Friday, February 24, 2012

u irk me to the core
e sight of u disgusts me
i really cant stand your voice. ur backview. ur EVERYTHING
u rake up the things i dont wan to remember
transporting me back into those times
how can u be so evil
n yet look so innocent and humble
like a wolf with a sheep skin on
CAN U JUST STOP APPEARING IN MY LIFE? N STOP GG FOR THE MEETUPS!? 
i dont understand  wtf u wanna go back for
destroying my day of goodness
sucking away all my joy
bitch.
 pls just get out of my sight. n NEVER come back. 
one teacher. one principal. two sluts. 
bring all womenkind to shame




Thursday, February 23, 2012

feeling the blues today... even though had a good badminton workout. ok not exactly good cos my right arm is still aching each time i exert it a little. time to train e left hand more to play racket sports.. 
ok back to the blues... maybe cos im pmsing.. plus the terrible headaches  i have been having for the past few days that deprives me of e natural ability to fall aslp like a pig each night.. 
to make things worse. food for dinner wasnt appealing to my palette at all. in fact it was damaging. the tmd spicy nasi goreng that burns more each time u ate a bite of it was terrible. n its making my stomach churn even till now.. 3 hours plus after dinner .. 
n y eat nasi goreng? cos stupid cp stall got nothing that i wanna eat. n .. dinner is the most impt meal of my day. so. dinner was sucky n .. im sulky.. 
thank goodness pipor pei me eat n etc despite the sulky n tortured expressions on my face as i ate dinner. n afterwards cos nothing i wanted to buy was available. HMPF! 
n to make things worse.. i go on fb.. n sometimes i just see posts that make me a little upset. 
its even more upsetting cos i feel that i shouldnt get upset over it. but i just do. 
sometimes. even between best frens. even between siblings.. relationships that took years to build can just crumble over time or even over single incidents. maybe to others. i have walked out of their life. n so im no longer needed. be it as a friend or as a sister. but the fact is. ya. im out of their life. but they r still in my life lei.. 
so that makes it even more depressing on a sian n sulky pms-y night...
maybe my previous post on what is free. friendships n all. well..maybe. they r not.. maybe they require some sort of benefit or a price to pay. but im still trying adamantly to not believe that everything in this world is linked to our own individualistic wants n needs. so if i need u. u have a value. n when i have so many others that can take ur place. that's when ur value fallls all the way to ZERO. pls tell me that this is not what everyone thinks.. 
or maybe .. 
i should just accept the fact that at least for now. im definitely NOT NEEDED and my value is ZERO to some. because either im out of their league and lives. or simply because. others have stepped in n filled up whatever i was used to fill. thus. value=0. accept it marie zheng. 

o well. its not like lamenting over all these things will help. but.. it probably wont hurt writing it on my blog since its like my outlet of ranting without needing to speak. i just type n type n type n it doesnt matter if anyone is reading or listening or wants to read/listen. i just need to rant it out. n 

I"LL BE BACK WITH MY SMILES N ALL =)  

happy thoughts =) 


despite all my complaining and what not.. i should always remember and count the blessings that i have =) 
n not focus on what i do not have or have lost. 




Tuesday, February 21, 2012

probably the ONLY person in the world who would gladly help me pack my messy n SUPER dusty room =) 

n yes. there i was sitting far away from the actual packing.. n just telling pipor whether to keep or throw e item. n just by sitting there. not packing. not moving. i sneezed n sneezed n sneezed n had a slight fever at night.. exhaustion from all e sneezing. n my eyes become swollen.. 

but he persevered and continued to pack my room. he says its 1/4 done now. cos there's still e cupboards n yes. my WARdrobe. its really like a war zone inside it. 
but still
THANKS THANKS THANKS my dear bf for helping me pack that 1/4 of my room. =)





Saturday, February 18, 2012


yes. i always make this drink for myself at work!! slurps!! i LOVE MATCHA MILK TEA! its so yummy n nice!! n plus. ITS FREE! yeyS!! no need to spend $7 in starbucks.. cos i got my dear.. dessert.cup. o yea 


one of the cupcake designs for v-day! so pretty.. using rosette piping! too bad chefs were too bz to teach me.. 
sudden craving for these yummy garlic escargots.. cheap n good from saizeriya.. yes. GARLIC. i HATE garlic. but this one is awesome. 

n yey! a long ago loot from JB jusco.. fav lotte koala biscuit. even though the standard of it dropped. bt still. haha.. plus got free keychain so cute .. BUY.





Friday, February 17, 2012

o my o my! 
its time to start on my fyp. 
after A WHOLE WEEK of procrastination.
today. im gg to start.
rationale being.. i have to meet prof on monday. so hopefully i'll send him some stuffs tonight so he can vet through n gimme some suggestions. (though most of the time he will just say. o good good. o ya. icic.. faints.. its not helping.. pls scold me or ask me to change sth! PLSS)
ok.
today. friday the 17th of feb. shall be officially dedicated to FYP.
jia you!
n yes... its time to constantly remind myself to STOP eating SO MUCH everyday. rice. cakes. bubble tea(yes. i LOVE bubble tea), desserts..  ahhhh
this pic shall serve as a reminder.. at my heaviest in sec 3.. 66kg worth of fats meat n bones. 
I WILL NOT EVOLVE INTO THAT AGAIN! 
even though i tried to wake up early to go gym. well. i woke up relatively early. but i didnt go gym. haha! this is how weak my determination is.. 
i haven exercised for so long! other den my mouth.. nom nom nom.
with my constant appetite. im gg to be fatter den my bf(who is losing weight miraculously) ! HMPF! 





Thursday, February 16, 2012

indeed! ..LIFE IS A PIECE OF CAKE!
when baking. u need to measure some things really carefully. the amount of flour to put. the amount of baking powder or soda.. the amount of butter.. the number of eggs.. 
too much or little of certain items would spoil the cake
but yet. when the basics r done well.. u can start adding little sprinklers or choc chips to decorate it. 
just like life.. some things in life, we have to go through them, step by step, learning and making sure that we do not make too many mistakes. when we realize we made one, we alter and change how we behave or how we think. but yet, all in all, after numerous alterations and new experiences, u start to enjoy the little bits and pieces of life and even add more colour into it! =)
so
LIFE IS A PIECE OF CAKE! no doubt about it =)





Tuesday, February 14, 2012

valentine's day is about who u love
but its not just about ur bf or ur gf
dont forget to share some love with your parents n siblings!
I LOVE YOU!

no lavish lunch/dinner. no lavish flowers or gifts. 
a simple home cooked meal. a small present to loved ones.
HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY 
<3




Friday, February 03, 2012

dont u just feel like taking a nap too?
each time i on my computer and attempt to type an intro and methodology for my fyp
my brain would shout out "marie! marie! u r SO TIRED n SLEEPY! n u have a HEADACHE! u should go n rest and nap!!! go marie GO!!!!!!!" 
..
how to do fyp?
GG.