went to ice skate yesterday.. 
and den roller blade today..
total difference in technique.. and temperature as well
but enjoyed both nonetheless!


whilst rollerblading
i was just thinking.. 
does the way someone blade tell u more about that individual
n i guess it does.. 
well. at least for me


when i blade. i dont look v far ahead. i tend to look either down at my skates area.. or at most.. 1m away from myself.. 
just like in life. i dont like to. or u can say. i cant really plan ahead. at times .. it's because im scared of what lies ahead. and at other times. im just too carried away with my present or past rather den my future. 
n this is totally reflected through the way i rollerblade


n when im lost in my own thoughts or suddenly feel that im falling
i feel frightened and suddenly lose my balance..
in life. its the same... sometimes i just lose sight of what im doing and end up tumbling down.... 


today.. after blading for some time.. my right feet was hurting.. some abrasion.. bt i decided to just skate on to the end.. maybe its some sort of perseverance. but at the same time i know
without the ppl beside me cheering me on.. or in front of me waiting. or behind me pushing my limits..
i would prob have not reached the finishing ling. 
n yap. its the same with my life. =)
inertia is high. im someone v easy to push forward n end up moving n moving. or simply a person who stops n the push factor to change that current state is usually e ppl whom i care about. that's prob the only thing that can spur me on .. to move forward.


was also thinking about commisioner's fav lingo or sth while i skate.. the "can do" mentality and the "be better" attitude... n its really kind of meaningful and good to always keep these in sight. that its not about not being able to do. its more about whether you want to do it or not... =)

n that's prob why even though im someone who has SUPER low tolerance of pain .. n low immune as of now(which im trying to "repair" through TCM) .. bt still. 
im proud to say that. at least.. me n wh tried to blade n we did it. =)) even though we r still beginners.. haha! 
BUT
instead of being quitters who just try n say. omg. its too tough. i think im not gg to skate. it too difficult. i cant do it. .. we tried our best.. 












the world was originally a nice place
until
the day humans became so in love
so in love
with THEMSELVES.
when we love ourselves more than others.
we end up with so many sins..


selfishness
jealousy
envy
unhappiness
the want to sabotage
the need to fake 
narcissism 

all these are what happen when we love ourselves more than others.
and place our own self as number 1.
we end up trying to protect all that we think belong to us.
not just extrinsic stuffs. but intrinsic values as well.
we try to protect our pride. our honor. our respect.
but at the exact same time when we protect them so.
we lose them
by protecting our pride. we do things to hurt others.
n thats when ppl we love r no longer proud of us
by regaining our honor, we sabotage others
n thats when we lose their honor
by trying to garner respect, we end up glorifying ourselves and demeaning others
ending up as a narcissistic jerk.
n thats when we end up losing the respect we have once gained through pure merit. 


so if one day
humans r so not in love with themselves
and learn to love others more
den maybe the world will be back to how it used to be
a nice and beautiful place
where ppl help each other for the sake of helping
where ppl smile their mos genuine smile
where ppl talk because they want to talk to u
where ppl praise u based on the sole fact that you deserve the praise
it sounds so dumb when written in words
but. so many a times.
we fall into the trap of being who we dont want to be
but for the sake of self love
for the sake of getting promoted or for the sake of getting noticed
we end up bootlicking.
n being fake

sucks right?

but come on!
the world could really be better
if every single one just put in a little bit of effort
and a little bit more love for our fellow homosapiens ...












went to search for a marathon in HK! n stand chart got one in FEB 2013!!! 
hopefully can go for a marathon overseas.. for the experience of running in polluted cum congested HK! LOL.. hope can get leave for me n ee orh!











suffering from the past few weeks till now 
of bad headaches.. 
giddiness 
that can last the whole darn day :(


its so bad that when i get on the train or bus. all i feel is 
my head hurting so badly that i feel like puking.. sigh
seriously hoping that the chinese med would be able to nurture me back into a good state of health
b4 i give up trying to endure the throbbing pains in my head


really feel like dying
hurts so bad that when i cough it hurts more..
n yest was the ultimate
on board a yacht for 1-2 hours... i wanted to cry
cos despite eating motion sickness pills
it was unbearable.. 


o headache
pls go away
n never come back
PLSSSSS


graduation day is coming soon.. 
n i only have one hope for that day
.. 
that francis will come for it. 
thatz all i hope for. n that would be the best graduation that i'll have. 


i really miss u. alot.
:((


korean dramas r nice
why? 


because....
the main guy lead is someone who usually pays attention to minute details that the female lead wants or likes even without her saying it out loud. or making it super obvious.. 
non verbal cues are good cues too.
n its sweeter if a guy gets the non verbal cues rather than verbal cues. 
because girls pay attention to small things. small little things that may slip past the eye of many.
bt if the guy manages to catch these tiny details
the simple things that he can do for her and make her happy are aplenty.
n it shows how attentive and sensitive a guy is to a girl he is with or loves.
if verbal cues r the only things guys get. den its nothing v v sweet or special about it because. 
anyone, in fact everyone can grasp what that girl wants if she vocalizes it and makes it so obvious.. 
as a result, it becomes sth common n ends up losing it significance.
n this is what saddens girls.


in conclusion. 
non verbal cues are of extreme importance. n shouldnt be chucked aside.
because non verbal cues cannot be heard and are usually not that obvious to the untrained eyes, 
all the more one should pay more attention and take note.
esp towards the cues given to u by someone impt. be it your family, friends or spouses


girls r easily pleased with small details because it shows that u care
but girls can be extremely upset and heartbroken when small issues r always being neglected and worse of all, not even realized. 
it is easy to pls a girl and ironically, to piss a girl off with small things..
so.. 
conclusion. if small things can please your loved ones and make them so happy. why not do it?
or why not. start noticing them slowly..
this is sth guys should start to learn .. be it from dramas. or from their more attentive friends. 
so. if u wan to get a girlfriend n allow the relationship to have continual sparks.. den its a high time to learn.


















work has been kind of tiring but fulfilling. 
fulfilling because of the great friends i have made in just 2 short weeks of work
like wh mentioned. even though we only knew them for 2 weeks. but it felt as though we have know them for months n months
this is prob the feeling u get when everyone clicks well n there r no anomalies in the group
learnt a lot of new stuffs 
met a lot of new ppl
had a lot of fun

n of cos
payday is coming!
already spent $104.50 in advance (wh's credit.. haha) on my new sports shoes! hooray!
cant wait for thurs becos this is like the BROKE-est period probably in my whole 24 years..... 
earn n save up! 
but of cos retail therapy is a must!


its good to go to work feeling chirpy even though waking up b4 9 is deemed as ungodly for me
but still.. 
im glad im not in e category of zombies that go to work looking like they were forced to resurrect n work their lives out for the whole week.. as of now la.. haha!
so
TGIM! thank god its monday also!
time to get back to work n use some brains! =)


n happy 45 months n a day to me n wh!! gg to reach 4 years anni soon!!!
hope it will be a memorable milestone.. haha! watched cake boss yesterday nite
n buddy(cake boss) n his wife celebrated their 10th year anni.. n it was so sweeet!
not because of the money spent or anything. 
but just the fact that they cherished their marriage of 10 years. "re-married" that day. and also to hear buddy tell his wife that .. after 10 whole years. he still loves her as much as the first day they got married and the way he praised the beauty of his wife as though he just met her made me quite touched n emotional..  esp after 10 years. no need to say how feelings can fade. some even turn to bad feelings. but yet they r still so loving etc. n to do their marriage vows again after 10 years is sth really meaningful... esp to women. ok. no stereotyping.. its sth really meaningful to me. n furthermore, he made such a beautifully stunning cake for his wife on that special day. the effort in planning n making it work would really touch someone. watch liao also want to tear.


anyways...
happy belated bdae to lamz
n happy grad photo taking day today to LBNF!!!! hot n tiring!!!.. but fun =)




its a bliss to b working.
because
im able to 
SLEEP LIKE A PIG! =)