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Friday, April 30, 2010

guess wad
o yeah o yeah!
350 is overrr!!!! lalalaa.. prances ard! n hi 5s mych n ben!! yey yey!
dun tink it was as disastrous as we thought it was
probably cos we each did put in effort to study
 plus ben treated us carls junior! slurps
chilli beef fries are prob the best thing! tho i prefer taco bell's taco fries or sth..
n ..
aniwaes..
after studying
we realized. tho the info is like infor overload on SEA.. but.
we seemed to have learnt quite alot! not jus for study sake. but prob know more about our region
tho v sad i nv use my 5 pillars of islam in the essay.. took me quite some time to rem de lor. sobs
i can still rem! shall show off!
sahada. salat. zakat. sawn. n haji! yey!
but nvm. used buddhism's triple gem.. eightfold path.. karma.. etc. lol!
n had to write about thaksin.. cos itz contemporary conflict in sea. when i hardly knew wad went on
.. onli know like the basics of thaskin's policies. but wth. hope im good enough in smoking through.. haha!!!!

exams seem to take a larger toil on ppl with each additional yr in uni
whoever said uni was easy. was bullshit. ok. prob the 3 months break n the short sems r an incentive. but. the intense studying that ppl do b4 exams. is like. we r redoing our A-levels again n again each sem! thats like 2 Alevels' worth of studying in a year lor!
n plus... ok. cant compare to my a levels. cos i dun rem putting in much effort that time. cos got band n got other stuffs in my mind.. haha!

i tink karma is sth real!
todae .. i was nice offered ice water to the two Bangladeshi workers who were working outside my house door on the lift or sth. .. cos i was wearing jeans n t shirt today. n walked home from the busstop. n could feel like the immense heat n glare from the sun n made me feel so terrible.
n den i saw them outside the lift. so warm. n so ke lian! they were wearing long sleeve white shirts.. n jeans. so. i guess they were prob even hotter den me! ( as in warmer! lol)

n the next thing i knew
lg dropped by n gave me 3 jelly drinks! hahaha! =) yeys!!
n pei me watch a bug's life b4 i embarked on my wonderful journey of the 4-5 hour nap! lol!!
slpt like a log..
no dreams.. ( not that i can rem)
nothing
just pure.. sleep n rest!! for the poor overworked n fried brain.. sayang. ..

read rena's blog
n .. wa! the power of the internet!! can even trace the person who dropped the wallet!
rena! do u believe in karma! ( rem the song? haha!)
if u drop ur wallet one day. someone will help u out too!haha!
n .. so shocked u still have ur mao bi pen n even the PAPER!.
thankz for ur constant letters n postcards that helped me thru exam period!

of cos .. it doesnt mean we do things in a rational sense as in for the reward.
but..
when we do things. just make sure .. we diu4 de qi wo men de liang xin can liao!

yoyo!
2 more papers to go
will be over in a jiffy!
lallalala
no mood to study today... .. n .. when its nearing the end of exams
it also marks the day my mummy flies to israel. sobs..
hope she enjoys herself n dun get into stupid trouble.. or blur blur get lost..
haven spent much time with her.. cos bz studying(stupid excuse .. but ya)
n plus.. poor her .. not onli does she have to tolerate my dad's tempers..
she even has tolerate my bad mood swings n sianness in studying. ke lian de mummy
pat pat.

jia you everyone!










Thursday, April 29, 2010


"Everyone wants happiness, no one wants pain, but you can't make a rainbow without a little rain."

so true.. ..
so study hard folks! we'll see our rainbows soon when we get back our results.
cos i suppose we can all feel the pain now.. studying for exams. HAHA
all that's left after exams is to wait for happiness n rainbows to bombard us! yeys!
i shall be emo kid no more. lol.

koi surprise was nice!
brot to my doorstep by an angel! haha! =)





Tuesday, April 27, 2010

dun miss studying at nie. but miss this plate of nie grilled fish! ahha! even tho that time cant finish. cos realli a lot!! hao hao chi
so wanted to eat this.. but was too late for breakfast..
n cos i was onli craving for that... totally had no appetite for anithing else.. n i haven had lunch till now.. sulk. yes. im stubborn! v stubborn. itz either hotcakes or. nothing. lol

wasnt in the best of moods yest.. can feel like the body's reluctance to not wan to study. but yet. have to. n not much time n etc.. just makes ppl frus..
feel so sian.
but yap. thank yous for cheering me up!! much much appreciated! =)

im gg to self declare break n start studying tom..
this is officially the first time im THAT stress for exams.
norm exams are sth that comes n goes.. n wunt make me that gek n sian
but this sem. is realli the ultimate.
the best module award officially still goes to
BAND MODULE
itz like. doing sth i enjoy. playing the eupho. even tho its a chore to lug eupho here n there. n sometimes its so sian cos prac is on a fri. but.. come to think of it. its the mod i feel happiest taking. . n cant wait to play nazca lines again!!! =) turnadot! ah! i wan to play..
persis.. multitude. winds of poseidon( eupho part was so tough for us in sec 1 !) ross roy.. eagle bend! even fire n ice. haha!!! o. fantasy variations.. can i get a second try in the solo? haha!







Monday, April 26, 2010

wonder how did i cope during engine times. omg




Sunday, April 25, 2010

watched a bit of "taking the stage" on mtv channel b4 i fell aslp
itz quite sian to study alone in sch. cos studying is naturally sian

but today. i got a surprise study partner =) =) haha!!! secret. lol!
tho it was for less den an hour! but still. haha! =)

hmmz..
taking the stage.. is a show about students who wan to pursue their dreams
of the arts
like dancing .. singing.. playing instruments
n there is a sch for that.. for all the arts students
itz so nice.. ah. i wan to do that too..
i wan to play my eupho full time also!
after hearing my horrible solo for fantasy variations. .. cant pitch the high notes. nid to breathe in b/w n cut the phrase.. n low notes couldnt be heard cos.. instole a breath. n .. ya.. generally. erm. not say v good! hahaha!!!
but itz not easy to pursue uur dreams. of being a musician or a baker. when the economy of society doesnt realli nid u to help churn large amts of profits. . im sorry to charp in some 203 stuffs. hahaha! cant help it.


studying is getting on my nerves
but at least im getting into the study mode...
past week was like. the try-n-study mode. yest was full swing astro.
todae is full swing 203 with a full swing of sian-ness overwhelming me ..
but the thought of the long hols..
would probably make this period of agony something worthwhile.

n its 10.20 now.
my mind is tinking of BU QUAN NU WANG!
today's epi v nice one..
ahhhhh
ok. shall watch it at 1040 to 11..
everyone needs a break
HAVE A BREAK HAVE A KIT KAT! ( im eating one now. lalalala)

blogging rocks.
i wan to rite random stufs for exams too. n not fail. HHAHA.

by tues afternoon. i'll be free from the weights of two burdens.
astro tom. n 203 on tues.
den .. its the o-so-scary 350.
n den its the shitty stats.
n LASTLY
the craziness of social psych which names every thing u do in society.. like standing. sitting. talking. laughing.. as.. a new term. social interaction. dramaturgy. the inner conversations u have. the looking glass self. o my tian.
but

as of now
im .. EXCITED! cant wait for it to all end with a bang!
ba boom! not like big bang! cos .. big bang made the world exist
if my exams end with a big bang. it would prob mean more exams? ha. not farni








v amused with myself.
studying alone at cant a today.
decided to be a loner cos.. if i study at home. i'll b one too. n the prob is. i cant realli study at home in the morn n afternoons. nights after 10 r the best times..
but. its been so tiring lately. that when i reach home ard 10 plus or 11 plus. i just bathe n slp! or watch some tv. lol

ok. was doing readings on 203.. reading about globalization .. how capitalist r exploiting the ppl
how conglomerates r invading in the different countries.. to expand businesses as transnational companies. crossing boundaries..
cos capital flows r made so much easier etc etc..
just like macdonalds.. ..disneyfication. shows how much influence the west can pound on us..
n ya. guess wad

im eating macs now! HAHA!! the irony of studying sociology.

den .. i rem reading about how paper mills n factories cause pollution in the world because of the chemicals they emit.. be it into the rivers or into our atmosphere..
but yet
here i am. reading stacks after stacks of white bleached paper. HAHA.

n in soci of food. learnt about food nutrition n also how the big food companies are like exploiting the poor farmers.. producing with regards to consumer demands.. n ya. eating macs. n other trashy food. supporting them .. is like wad im doing now lor.
sai.

n talk about saving the earth..
reducing green house gases
cutting down on electricity.
n here in ntu
aircons lights fans. always on.
tink nie is not bad. tho the fan u must manually on it .. every 30 mins
but its good lei. it lets u walk ard after studying. n it saves the environment.. u dun nid it. dun on it.
but hor. as for the lights in nie. its weird. i dunno how to make it go on or off.lol.

so many thiings in life
we know.
we know its harms
we know its harms to the ppl n the environ ard us
n yet
we simply.
continue with our terrible way of life.
u me. everyone.
(perhaps with the exception of my electricity-water-saving dad. who buys no branded stuffs-hence indirectly doesnt suport sweat shops. , who eats all our left overs.. who seldom eats out. who uses water which i use to wash my cups n plates to flush the toilet. ..sometimes its gross to see a veg floating in the toilet bowl. n yes. environmentally unfriendly me will go flush the toilet! hahah! )

if onli exam questions for 203 was like erm
- how do we support the ppl in power. the capitalist. n perpetuate environmental probs. perpertuate the problem of the development of the underdevelopment of countries..
wa!
it'd be great man!

hha! ok.
continue to munch on my mac pok pok kei!





Saturday, April 24, 2010

watching jiu xiang lai ze ni
ah
so sweeeet
jerry yan is so so so so sweet to ella in the show
ok its a show
but..
he is always there for her! nv scold her or niam at all the stupid things she did.
just mo mo de treat her so nicely!
=)
love this show!

bai quan nu wang also nice!
ah

all the nice n sweet lovey dovey shows
wonder how many guys liddat r out there!
haha! tink.. 1/10?
or at least how many guys will like a tomboy. or a woman 8 yrs older! haha!

yawnz.
today.
marie is exhausted.
totally.





this is a damn random post
but.. im not trying to laze n not study for astro n blog!

reached sch at 8.30 am today cos didnt realli study a lot yest..
so decided. ok. wake up at 7.30 .. den go sch! n study harder today.. to lessen my amt of exam jitters.
but when i reached sch.
feeling tired n sian..
cos i have to wake up so early..
i see all the cleaners who are mostly senior citizens.
n they r already here cleaning the tables.
mopping the floor.
clearing the trash that the horrible students. us. leave behind as we study.

was just wondering
y r we studying so much..
most would say to get a better future right
but.. does that better future include having our parents living in comfort with us?
.. its like. so sad that these folks save money , get us through uni.. n
it would be sadder if we just let them work as cleaners clearing trash early in the morn
its not like being a cleaner is not a good job or wad.
but they r old alreadi. n carry trash .. mopping.. is quite taxing on their already overworked bodies..

hopefully
the ppl studying here in the canteen
would like earn big bucks n be successful ppl in the future
but yet.. dun forget to pass some of their fortunes n blessings to their old folks..

the irony is.
if everyone is living in bliss.
who will b our cleaners?

so conclusion
..
do treasure the cleaners ard too..
its hard work..
n i dun tink they get like a lot of pay..
so for god's sake. throw r rubbish when u leave the canteen. at least clear the tables..
make their lives easier.
n happier
aunties n uncles usually get v happy when we smile n say morning to them!
so let's make their lives and world a more colourful one1

ok
this is terrible
i shall get back to work now




Friday, April 23, 2010

so scary right
i didnt photoshop it or darken the colour
this was how threatening the sky looked
n this is my current outlook towards exams too! OMG.
but if my vision to exams is like this pic . . dark n scary.
maybe its cos i didnt see the light! there's still light shining on the grass patch!
so.
MUST ZHEN ZUO!
ah!
im getting the exam jitters. cos.. i have tons more to study. 203 n astro. sat n sun. n mon paper.
a little bit of stress is good
but now. is .. im SCARED. hahaha!
where is the old marie who heck care exams? come back!
hhaha

ok. not scared not scared
just study
cannot means cannot
can means can

must believe ma xiaoling
XIANG XIN JIU XING! yo! =)

jia you! ah!





when the world's too noisy
find a place thatz quiet
when the world is still too noisy
plug in ur ear piece

when u step back home
into another reality
only den do i realise
the outside world isnt noisy
what's noisy is in here.
stuffs that cant be blocked out.

argh. so frustrating.
when there's no peace in the heart
there's no peace aniwhere



feel like gg chinatown by myself.
buy a cup of koi
sit somewhere n study alone till night time
n return






Tuesday, April 20, 2010

everyone is sian n sick of studying.n just waiting for exams to end.. n transit into the happy 4 months break period.
many r panicking cos this sem's stuffs r not easy. suddenly classical social theory seems so easy compared to wadeva we r studying this sem

217. readings r simple n nice to read. concepts r .. not that easy to grasp
302. stats. u either know it. or u dun. we dun have tys to prac ok. thatz y .
350. one reading zaps up about min 1.30 to 2 hours of ur time. one reading. not one lect. so 12 lects. average3-4 readings per lesson.
Astro. I JUST REGRET NOT SU-ING IT NOW!
203. readings a bit trashy. course info also abit thrashy. so u dun realli know wad to study?
Band module. had to gabra fingering for turnadot. but. nvm la. lol. i suppose this will be the best mod this sem. compared to the rest. HAHA

time of the month is here once more
no wonder my legs were so cold n numb yest compared to normal days.
i tot it was due to over dosage of tea. but dun tink so.
studying session today in sch failed. there was me ben zy n valerie. n by 2. onli left zy n val. lol
went home to slp. bot black chicken soup hoping it'll help me! gg to have it for dinner with tv =)
the leg numbness n coldness .. is a v weird thing. it makes u feel like u have jogged for 10 km that feeling. n u feel v suan. n v cold. n when u walk. u will like jiao ran.


mood : gloomy n sian.
mood forecast for tomorrow. : ALL HYPED UP N STUDYING V V HARD FOR EXAMS =)
excellent.





Sunday, April 18, 2010

=) my dear bf! haha! n the cute lil mango! taken after the ding tai fung day! when we ate so much!!!
mummy n me!
this is damn farni. it took me so so many shots to take a nice pic of her.. the nicest pic is like the bottom left one. the rest hor. is hilarious! sometimes .. a simple meal at the coffeeshop beats all buffets n ex meals that costs a bomb upside down!
at the buffet today.. at duno maritus mandarin or sth la. dun realli bother about where we eat. cos i tink buffets r a waste of money... n it makes u overeat! n thatz why 3 of us walked round to take stupid pics
after nie band. fran came to pick me.. n instead of driving his sick n dying n pale sis home. he drove her to jp n ate prata. but. HAHA prata nice lei! n yes. the idiot behind me is the one who kept singing songs. omg. wanted to turn ard n tsk him!
the bu shuang face. cos he say the me goreng not as nice as last time. tot it was nice!
the saddest meal from cant b cai peng. the day when i went n there was. NO FISH! ah! so sad .. sobs
little yellow baby n lg!
the realli nice girl who came from cant b to cant a to give us bubble tea n went back to cant b . so nice!! =)

but nice ppl like her cant do maths. see. no wonder mych is in soci! for 302 u better double check ur calculations hor! hahaha!!! hilarious. the 7 cents remainder part was so farni!
ting ma's chio hair tied by me!



spotted! a creature trying to escape!

a burst of random pics cos of the sianness of knowing that exams r coming n
i dun feel prepared
n i didnt study todae. cos go buffet. n den slpt. n den went out to eat a light dinner with my mum
n its 10.51pm. i haven started work. n im blogging. mummy tell me dun study too much! HAHA

sometimes its up to ppl to see things in positive light
a drop of tear. can be seen as a shining pearl
a look of sadness. is nothing other than a smile turned upset down
a ton of redundant n mean negative words. can be transformed into positive ones
quarrels. r better than being two entire strangers
having parents that niam at each other. is better than having none.
a set of notes. may enhance ur intelligence
a cup of tea that may have negative effects on me. perk me up n cheers me up
overeating. is better than dying of starvation.
sadness. is better than being emotionless n heartless
crying. wash away bacteria from ur eyes! haha( the radio say one. n i heard about it last time too.)
studying despite fatigue. is better than ppl who wish to but nv had the chance to
falling aslp while studying. is way better than insomnia

see.
all negative things
can be positive things
as long as one's mindset is positive
everything changes

=)







Saturday, April 17, 2010

2 nice ppl n one dear lg
ting ma pei me study after my lesson.. so nice!!
lg bot me lunch from cant 2! n we ate tog!=).. so sweet!!!!!!!!!! =)
mych delivered bb tea from cant b to cant a . n went back to cant b! so touched!!!!

smiles!

band prac was so so tiring..
my lips r dying!
haha!!!

ok. so tired
cant even rem wad i initially wanted to blog about.
yawnz.
2 hours ago. i ate supper with my mum
tomyam maggi mee with veg, egg n prawns. slurrrrrps!
nice.
n watched amazing race repeat till 12am. which suppering. haha!
i wan go mega zip!




Thursday, April 15, 2010

"The eruption of the Eyjafjallajokull volcano in southeast Iceland had already melted part of a surrounded glacier causing severe floods. More than 700 people were evacuated from their homes."

adapted from CNA

erm. how to pronounce the name of the volcano? lol.
aniway . exam periods make me sian
cos ..
i just feel generally irritated n bitchy.
cos of stuffs
argh.
shrugs





exams r coming
mood still not there
just prac-ed eupho.
n still tink sound quite.. yuck.
n the high notes. omg.
hope mon can play.
onli thing that can save me this sem
is
BAND
..
rena. arent u glad i band band band everyday? HAHA!!!!

today's thunders n lightnings were scary!!!




Wednesday, April 14, 2010

crazy crazy crazy
last lect of 350.
we learn a totally new topic on islam
second last topic was buddhism
how come christianity is not taught in 350? haa!
den i wouldnt need to be trying means n ways to understand the terms from buddhism n islam..
ah!
driving me nuts just doing the readings..
cos.
i dun understand
n when i try to speed read n browse.
i dun seem to fins ani secial point to highlight. cos. it seems like every point is important

madnessssssss lol
n my runny n itchy nose is making things worse.
this repeated action has been gg on for the past hour despite eating med liao
i blow my nose.
den cos itz itchy.
i sneeze
den . the paper kips getting blown away by the wind. highlighters kip dropping off the table.
haha!!! v amused.
den i blow my nose again. n sneeze again!

getting v amused by everything these few days.
im gg nuts
ask mych.
she saw me luffing at the ppl behind me in cant a
luff until i cried
hysterical.
hahaha!

every subj is freaking me out this sem
how come they not give any past yr paper lar!
omg
.
ok.shall stop niaming non stop
lalalalala
time to go back n try to figure out things.
if onli i got GB's brain. maybe i'll memorise every detail like where this n that religion came from. when. how. through whom. which century. the different variations. .. the exact years n dates of stuffs happening. GB is a walking encyclopedia. genius.
but . during his lect. i cant help but doze off.
snores.

happy belated birthday dok!






Monday, April 12, 2010


dear dokdok! happy birthday once more!
where got ppl so nice celebrate with u two timess hor! hahaha!
facebook cant upload pics. so gek..
n omg. its 11.35pm! ahhh
n dun say i alwaez post ugly n unglam pics for u
here r two nice n pretty pics!!!!! =)
happy brithday once again.
ok 30 more mins.
yawnz.





Sunday, April 11, 2010

went to celebrate dokdok's 22nd bdae at goat farm. den she was forced to go frog farm. n den we trailed a tour bus to go to the fish farm! haha!
n last stop. YUMCHA!
dokdok's bdae alwaez near exams. but maybe its a good chance for us to take a break n see wads more impt in life.. !
friends .. relaxation.. joy.. def weigh more than studies studies studies..
no cake for dokdok cos SHE DOESNT eat cake. haha!!!!
see ya again tom! celebration part 2! dinner! lol.
happy birthday in advance rena chan!!! =) =)






Thursday, April 08, 2010

today.
didnt study much
got addicted to the impossible test app on my iphone.. lol
thankz ar lg. for introducing me this.. itz never ending! lol
felt like a moron going for 203 lect cos itz an utter waste of time.
i practically fell aslp. n the time i was awake. most of it was spent on?
THE IMPOSSIBLE test! hahaha!

ok la. chinese lib was freezing cold today.
but i managed to use mind power to tell myself im ok.
n it did succeed. till ard 5 plus. when i was so cold. i decided to wear my jacket bring my notes out. walk in the sun n read. to feel a bit warmer b4 gg back to the lib. but.. apparently .. ppl tot i was crazy. saw one soci senior. n he was like. erm. why r u walking in the sun reading .. n wearing ur jacket. when i told him. chi lib too cold. he just gave me the weird look...
tsk.

having bf lunch n dinner with lg tom!
ppoor thing so sian today. eat dinner alone. n o .. plus ts brot home the tv liao!
nvm. next week u'll have damien! to pei u run.. n eat dinner also! so wunt so sian

bus ride on 187 was bad. i walk halfway home wanted to puke. cos bus was quite jerky. den bot a sweet drink hoping it'll hel
i can foreseep. it did i guess. a bit. lol.
suddenly.
overwhelmed by a sian-ness of. " I DUN WAN TO STUDY" feeling
but. o my. that feeling has to be gone. shoooo!
excited bout gg cambodia! mych has booked tixs! n we owe her $$$
cant wait to go hk either to shop!
n go jb malacca trip with bf rena n buffalo!!! =)=)
n.. maybe penang with rena
n maybe malacca with wh n his family! haha
omg.

i will be a pauper.
nvm
at least i will be a happy one !
ok time to stop slacking!
n do some work!
zooom off!





o . i wan a pet dragon. ! lol. toothless!





Wednesday, April 07, 2010

Points to Remember


karma.
rem luffing at rena cos she got IBS n cannot eat eggs or drink milk or sth..
n now. i tink i have also lei.
been feeling weird the past few days. n the symptons like bloated stomach or abdomen .. etc. is wad i have been feeling!
tsktsk. wad goes ard comes ard! lol.

shall upload pics from fone tom.. dunno y the lappie is not detecting my fone at all! weird.
.. stomach pain.. :( .. sobs.
according to the website. i should eat more fibre, more fruits. more veg. ok. shall start doing that tom. no weird food. n eat small meals 4 to 5 times instead of 3 big meals..
sayang my poor tummy :(

aniwae.
watched how to train a dragon today with wh
itz realli nice!! n sweet
i wan a dragon too! lol. =) toothless..
dunno y. but i felt like i was absorbed into the magical world of dragons too.. ok. sounds so kua zhang. but. yey. nice song =) go catch it if u all r free!!
din tai fung was nice.
swensens.. tink coit tower is still my fav. next time we go eat sticky chewy choc ok! since u nv try b4! .. but not so soon. cos stomach will protest loudly

shant do ani work. didnt do ani in fact for today.
schedule is not ticked for today's work at all.
tom buck up a bit.
dman sian now.

itz sian when u kip feeling sick or falling sick easily
wake up .. feel giddy. or take bus too long. or just .. gidddy n headache for no reasons.
or during the time of the month. u feel so weak. that when u stand ur legs feel like giving way.
or.. when u sneeze cos of dust.. n this one sneeze will lead to many. n end up. sore eyes n red nose
or.. when u just feel cold so easily. n the cold is .. unbearable. the cold until u feel like dying. like during 350 classes on tues nites. itz freaking cold. or in chinese lib. itz realli the. i feel like i can die .. weird.
or when u feel feverish just after a few hours in the sun.. n u start to emit heat.
being healthy is good.
i shall start a healthy lifestyle.
n throw in more veg n fruits each day to build up my poor immune system till itz strong strong!
den i'll do wad i wan. go where i wan. =)

wanted to wait till 12. cos each month im the one who says. happy 18 months n 1 day!.
but. im too tired. .. :(
nites ppl!






supposed to be doing
my buddhism reading.
but end up feeling sian n tired n stomach feeling weird.
so watched one epi of xia yi zhan xing fu
..
n the photographer told them that
even though time cannot be reversed.
the magic that lies in that of photography is..
that photos are able to preserve that moment and instant for eternity.
no matter how much u try to rem of that one instant in the past.
u can nv rem it wholesale. but with photos. itz just diff.
n rena n wh. thatz y i got 4k over pics in fb! haha! we capture these little instants of joy n freeze them forever .. etched not just in our memories but also in hardcopies that we can share with others. =)

one day when im richer. i'd buy a list of items .. like a real good SLR.. an electric mixer. a realli good oven. etc. haha.

n was wondering. if im vaness in the show. n had a brain tumor.. and was left with a month to live.( assuming that operation wouldnt help) . how would i live it. how would anyone live it?
now i understand y joseph's tattoo is memento mori. .meaning .. remember death.
onli when u remember that u r gg to die one day. will u attempt to live ur life to the fullest!

o ya!today. i was diao-ing these two idiots sitting at the seats that are like meant for elderly n pregnant ppl etc. ppl who need the seats. n these idiot YOUNG N ABLE BODIED couple just die also dun wan to give up the seat to the poor ah ma who was carrying so many plastic bags of stuffs. plus umbrella etc. n itz ok if u didnt see the ah ma. but the stupid girl saw. n she saw me staring at her. den she just pretend to slp. omg. n poor ah ma had to stand for like another 4,5 stops before she got a seat.. n the seat was like.. must climb that two stairs in the new sbs bus .. tsktsk. mean young ppl. *shakes head in disapproval* how can one be so oblivious to the ppl ard them. or even to the extent of ignoring ppl who need the seats more than they do. DEVIANT BEHAVIOR! .. as learnt in 217. haha!

happy 18! tho cant go town.. or go lauren bernard chocalatier..or wild honey..
but i guess dinner at safra would b good too =) n we can learn how to train dragons b4 or after that.. =)











Monday, April 05, 2010

hi to the cute little boy.. miss him loads. when hols come i'll bring him out! =)
n hi to a cute bunny .. miss smiggles. lop ear rabbits r cute!

itz weird how fast this sem passed.
exams r in 3 weeks
band assessment is in 2 weeks. n i hardly can play the full pieces. needless to say play them well
n i didnt su astro. meaning. one more subj to pia .
350 is scary with the tons of readings.
just look at mych. she printed like $24 bucks worth of notes just from 1-2 weeks? plus a few duplicates cos got mine. darn ex can. n now ez link card left $2 plus. HAHA
n the scariest thing
the papers we r taking this sem.
there are NO past year papers for reference. omg. this is the worst case scenario where u dunno wad to expect. wad to focus. cos there r way too mani stuffs.
but. nvm. study plan has been written out. a tad too ambitious. but. if i dun reach for the stars. i will definitely fall into hell. so no choice. lol!
exciting.
mug hard.

played badminton today! great workout! hope dun ache tom. i was a good girl n stretched after badminton.

NEVER GIVE UP spirit shall persevere till end of exams. come on marie. come on ppl!
lift up ur spirits. dun be sad cos of tests results being bad or wad. cos. ultimately. tho results do matter. its wad u learn n have absorbed n the ppl u meet in uni. the experiences that make life worth it!
so JIA YOU LO!
bu yao fang qi!
it'll all be over in a jiffy! =)




Sunday, April 04, 2010

when u flip thru old photo albums.. this is wad u get.. =) haha!! see. thatz the table i fell from n broke my arm ... n that is prob the onli time im fatter den francis. n



this is prob the onli time francis was thinner than joe.. n maybe. they were still talking to each other then.. haha!!



my dear dear dear dearest relative. my gong gong!
he's the best !. even tho he used to smoke. he had the determination to quit. he knew other lang like tamil n malay.. n he tot me how to play zero point.. n the strings game which u play on ur fingers.. n rubber band. how to make a star etc.. n he always tried to comb my hair after i bathed just like his! all the way back ! =) can rem all thesse v clearly
n rem how sad i was when he passed away.
so vividly in my mind..
i tot he was alive n wrote him letters n put it on his coffin. n on the last day. when they were gg to cover the coffin. the head there one. i rem i grabbed the guy trying to close. n kept crying. i was so sad. even my grandma had to comfort me..
haiz.. itz been so so long le gong gong. sometimes i wonder how it will be like if he is still here on earth with me.. it'll be great.
sobs..


my mode of tranport at home!!!. which joe always try to spoil or snatch away. vrooom!!!! so cute hor. itz an elephant! n itz v noisy.



prob this was one of the las few times i could recall.. that they actually held hands..
so .. after many years of marriage. does love fade away?



dunno who's bdae.. tink itz joanne's .. since she was in the middle.. she didnt know i tried her cake alreadi! lalala



no wonder one of the idiot neighbours mistook me for a boy. tsk. shall cut this hairstyle again one day! hahah!



one of the esso family days. this one is at the tang dynasty thing.. i tink no more liao le.. still rem got coupon one.. den see u heng sway get wad meal. got fried chicken. got chinese mixed rice etc.. fun!


in italy.. when i was in p3. so proud to skip mid terms in pri 3. n still so li hai get into 4A! *shows off* .. cos my end of year was so darn good. my teacher sent me to the best class.
but. HAH! in the end . lazy. ended up in 5B .. HAHAHA!!!! *covers face *


miss the good old days.
time to develop pics. digi cam is good cos u can take tons of photos
but itz not good.
cos ppl always end up not developing them
i wan to show my kids! my teenage. my friends. my sch. their father .. haha!
my hamsters. rabbits..
=)

n .. .. next topic. francis n i will NEVER eat ytf at our house there again
got insects..
little little bugs
the aunty insisted say its the veg. so i took out all the veg from my soup which had ONE insect.
n she went to change the rest for me.. with the non-veg liao4
but.
she came back.. n when fran said. those small black things must b insects. i tot he was kidding
n upon closer inspection. freak shit! ended up got FOUR more in my soup la
so . we concluded. itz not the veg dirty. itz THIER SOUP LA!.. maybe they put insects so it is higher in protein.
sorry aunty. n ytf uncle. tho we were good frens. n u rem that dun wan chong n oil in my soup. n i dun wan chilli.. but.
dun u know.. i dun wan insects either?
goodbye ytf uncle n aunty. i wunt patronise ur stall animore..
unless i lack protein one day! hahaa!

n i un-su astro. cos i got a B+. not excellent. but .. if i study had. hope i can maintain that B+ or get an A-. that'll ssave me from .. wad i foresee to b my terrible cores.
n to make things worse.. there r like no past year papers for these cores to refer. . damn!




Saturday, April 03, 2010

ah! dunno y v tired..
maybe from the standing up during work at vw
plus the run today
first time run with yiting at my house there!
ran with yiting zy .. den had breakfast with them n youwei
v v v tired..
watching i not stupid 2
itz damn farni!!!
jack neo was teaching his son maths.. angles..
den the boy calculate until 500 plus degrees. which is wu bai duo du
den the jack neo said. wu bai duo du! ni yao wo DU NI AR!

hahahaha!
burst into fits of laughter.... HAHAHAHA
ok. work work work. nv realli study these few days. onli did my social psych readings.. browse thru
... exams r coming soon. time to come up with a timetable
yawnz
tired.




Thursday, April 01, 2010

i have a bad temper.
a weird one in fact.
when ppl expect me to be upset or angry. i usually am not
but. when they dun
that's when i do.
itz hard to predict wad makes me upset
cos.
sometimes. like a vase that seems sturdy n hard
it'll smash into a million n one pieces when sth strikes at it. or when it falls to the ground.
of cos
itz harder for humans to decipher when humans are upset.
cos. we dun literally smash into pieces n ppl can just maintain a strong front despite the fragility inside of them. the uncertainty.
when i tell ppl im an introvert
no one believes.
other than me myself n i
sometimes. maybe being alone is good too.
clears ur mind. have a conversation with urself
cos who can understand how n what u feel
other than .
your own self. =)

dun realli feel like working tom despite double pay cos its good friday.
dun like waiting till 6pm. to take a bus home.cos taking a bus home is no motivation.
dun like spending every min as though its an hour there
dun like feeling sulky. but sulky do i feel.
wanted to watch movie. but no movie to watch. maybe should have just took a bus to jp n bot the tickets when the cinema was still onli half filled
n one day. i shall try. like wad yiting does. watch a movie alone. wonder how that feels. other than gg toilet alone which is scary. it should b ok i guess..
wanted to fry realli pretty choc pancakes after watching bob blumer do that on tv.
but my pancakes r miserly n small n hard to shape
wanted to have one pancake with milk. but i cant drink milk cos my stomach feels weird since 2 days ago. n with my headaches. this double hit makes me feel like puking. esp during tut today..
n didnt go run partly due to headache.. scared will run straight for the drain.
i feel exhausted at times in life
exhausted at how much i can lament in my life
from now on

i shall change
n just let everything be as they are.
i will not attempt to wan things to happen in my way
i will not do things that upset ppl
what else......hmmm
i will not laugh at ppl
not be an obstinate person
not be hurt by every single tiny thing. realli. tiny things.
stop being sian n not talk suddenly for no reason..
stop getting affected too much by stuffs.
live life with an open heart
when ppl ard me are happy
i know
i will be.


n anita. im not being emo or sad..
im just having a conversation with myself. .. =) haha







"The difference between school and life? In school, you’re taught a lesson and then given a test. In life, you’re given a test that teaches you a lesson."– Tom Bodett

-copied from ben's blog. was trying to recall this quote yest when i blogged. but couldnt. lol!

"It doesn't help that the person who should be sweet and sympathetic has decided to express her niceness in the form of mocking laughter that fills the air, deriding my illness, my very existence even. Hahah." this is also adapted from ben's blog.
n haha. i feel guilty for that sin! haha!!!! i cant help but laugh when he coughs liddat. itz hilarious! but. i promise to be nicer to everyone ard me. to not mock them . or chuckle at ppl's funny misfortunes! =) haha!

had bf with bf this morn
kfc bf never fails. ok. the waffles werent the best. but.. other than that n the porridge(which we haven tried yet).. kfc breakfast is nice!
n my personal fav is the am twister! realli nice!
got home todae. n realized. despite the spiltting headache n wan to puke feeling that...
we nv take out traffic light pic! red green n mango yellow colour! ah!

had a nap from 1m to 4.50, 5 pm?
ok. a NAP that lasted for so long!!!
terrrible giddiness has swarmed into my head for the past few days. must have been the extreme mugging for astro. good n bad. at least i studied astro.. cos there is still an exam to take.. lol.. so much studying for 15 mcq questions. omg. sucks. n to make things better. the guy infront of me finish it in like. im serious.. 5 mins. i finished it too ard that time. but more of cos i cant do it.. not cos i did it real fast. lol!!!!

n yes. glee is on star world..
n im watching it again
if onli there's a glee club in singapore!
i'll join. if they let me. cos . i cant sing nor dance. HAHA!
GLEE!