LOVE is not solely a spark.. sth that makes ur heart thump all the time.. that makes ur legs wobbly when u r so nervous to see him..
its not sth that can make u happy everyday
but. no doubt. it can make u the happiest
it is not sth that is that hard to upkeep
but. everything needs a little effort

it is when seeing him becomes perhaps.. a usual thing
it is when holding his hands become natural n not sth that u explicitly think of..
like. "o .. when do we hold hands.. or can i hold his hand now ".. etc
it is when eating together seems like an everyday affair
it is when u can talk to him normally like how u would to a friend, a best best bestest friend

BUT

despite all these being normalized..
he is probably the only guy who can make me the happiest n the saddest
whom i'll nv get bored of
whose hand i wunt get sick of holding
whose muffins will be there for me to rest my hand. lol
whose penguin-like laughter is the nicest sounding laugh on earth
someone whom i'll love to tickle each day cos i love to see him laugh and smile n ren me tickling him cos i love to. n he'll let me do it..
someone whose friends i can click with. n he too can click with my frens n their bfs. haha!
someone who gave me my dearest soft toy xiaohong n his friends ( xh has an increasing number of friends and pets.. so spoilt liao. even got a WHOLE bdae cake!)
someone who cant get like 50% of my obvious hints..(but its ok!!) hahahaa!
n HE is the guy i spent two over years with
despite our ups n downs

n thus
this entry is dedicated to him
<3>n him only
my dear lg =)


no pictures to post!
cos.. i got no more little red cam
i have it
but .. its.. not on-able.. so sad hor.. . .:(
going to get a s95.. but.. i secretly wish.. i could have gotten the g12 instead..cos
somehow..
some things
u just fall in love with it..
even if its more expensive.. n has like nearly the same functions
but.. its just diff?
dunno la
im just being trashy.. haha!
bt since me n mych can onli get one at a better price.. i still have time to tink over it..

o well
in life
one shant be too greedy n make do with it..
sometimes it feels like 10 times happier when u spend money on ppl whom u love n care for
rather than just for urself..
n sometimes one just feels more willing to splurge on others rather than on ownself.
*sulks for a while*

this xmas
no presents
no extravagant stuffs or gifts
but..
somehow
i feel quite happy too
spent time with bf..
with mummy..
went to see sean bryan shirley shirine.. somehow they just make ur day
im biased.. but i somehow love bryan a lot! cos he is realli a v sweet boy. of cos sean too!
i like baby boys better! heh.
o
finally watched both rapanzel n haPPY potter.. ( both were nice! esp rapanzel! its was superb!)


just finished reading xmas card from anita
n somehow reading her cards n letters .. emotions r evoked so easily.. that it seems like she was meant to a writer.. a writer that can touch ppl's hearts.. n heartfelt concerns n thoughts.

i guess this xmas
i wish that
everyone will learn to treasure the ppl ard them
dun take them for granted
they may always be here for u .. like all the time .. to the extent that they become so normal.. so insignificant.. so.. commonsensical ( soci ppl should get it.. foucault.. n his idea of how everyone seems so normalized n commonsensical to the extent that we dun realize it)
dun wait till that someone special in ur life is gone n den start to regret it
that someone special is usually someone who is always ard u .. but someone whom u take for granted.. like
ur parents.. ur siblings.. ur good frens.. ur gf/bf






anitua! merry xmas! know u must b kind of sian that u r sick again ! but nvm. make sure u r ok to go jb on tues ok!? =)
n rem ask xiang ying dun go ur house when she is sick! aiyo..
rem to take ur vit c .. eat proper n healthy balanced meals n have ample sleeeep!
merrrry xmas lo lp! =)

rem this cup ? dokdok! my ice-infused tea creation! lol! my dream!!

seems SO SO SO SO SO long since last met u! like one year liddat .. omg! glad u r having tons of fun in hk! esp when u have so many pics n anita n i r like stalking u .. ( but i secretly tink anita stalk u way more! hahahah! )
cant wait for u to be back in singapore n go jb buy.. 3 for 10ringgit!
merry xmas .. all the way to HK!
dokdok chiang!

o guess wad? im not in this pic!
but this special boy that i wanna thank is in this pic!
n .. i promise.. that i'll always be there in his bdaes photos from 22yrs old onwards! till old.. white hair.. cannot eat cake.. no teeth! lol! =)
that i wunt not b in ur bdae pics.. animore!



For all the obstacles we have crossed.. n overcome.. for all the tears n quarrels.. for all the laughter n giggles.. for all the tickles n pi-pors.. for all the silly stupid funny things we do n luff n luff n luff non stop over.. to opening up to my spastic ideas or pei-ing me do things that i wanna do.. that u may prob nv try.. be it food.. or new stuffs.. etc.. n for letting me like things i nv liked .. llike onions .. green chilli.. noodles.. wtm.. etc.. to u knowing my circle of frens.. n me knowing urs.. n to be able to click with them..
we have become happier..
u r not just my bf
u r my bf-s
my boyfriend plus my best friend! =)
muakz to u !
n merrry xmas! hope u had fun with the kids just now! n with the tons of walking we did today..

HOHOHO! merry xmas everyone!
this entry is dedicated to my three greatest friends!
my lp. my enemy-turned-best-friend. n my boyfriend cum best friend! =)




my gross brother


my mother who loves the camera but shuns it when she is not ready .. not dressed up.. no make up.. lol!



my lovely motivational cards from bf! yeys!
this xmas..
we have a list
12 days of xmas.
12 different burgers! burgers that we haven tried b4.
2 down. 10 more to go. =) exciting!

tho i niam n hiam that we r not gg like some far away place for holiday.
but haha! im contented with batam! yey!
its the company that matters!
faster finish exam bah ! lalala
waitin for u!

tom shopping with mych! den wed meet anita!
! xmas is coming! no xmas cards written. no presents for others. omg
hmm
wondering
how to make this xmas meaningful....




how to escape from reality?

run into virtual reality
talk to ur blog
go on fb.. go online

n STOP STUDYING
omg
so sian
so many soci ppl ended their papers either yest or todae.. n no im not ending tom
but im ending on monday!
n its so so SO SO SUPER DUPER SIAN

n tom's paper its like 9am n i haven realli touched much on it yet cos had to mug for development which has one hell of an info....
sexuality stuffs r killing me.. cos there is like not much to study. but yet.. there is like a lot
like there is no concrete thing u know that u can focus on. so its like u r standing on shaky grounds! ah!

sian sian
ok
gg to take a break at 945 n watch 9pm show

xiaoying zhou jie ming er le
zhou jie ming yao chi fan le! HAHHA



lalala
suddenly i m stressed!
yes.
stressed!
by the fact that.. i m not prepared for 315 n 319..
n the best part? i haven studied for tomorrow's 5 pm paper which i NEVER su. HAHAR
tai li hai le. feel like slapping myself now. lol

stress makes me concentrate n study better
but.. not too much la.. too much become crazy liao.
haha!

thick mattress
pillows that heads dun slip away
bolsters that dun crush ppl
hahahaha..
but dun worry
thin mattress
pillows that costs $3.90 n pillows that r like non existent
bolsters that r big n heavy
r still ok! lol! survive-able
omg
im dead beat

like. DEAD yes.. literally.. brain dead that dead..
gg to read for tom's paper.
n den tom is memorise ! b4 5pm.. n den.. after that. POPS champagne. one more paper down
n den.
reality again
n back to study n stress mode for fri n sat's paper..




tiptiptaptaptiptiptaptap! RIVER DANCED! yey! so happy!! thank u lo lg!!
handsome boys n poster!
happily cam whoring inside after the show.. haha! nice place!

=) yeys! lion king. ure up next! dinosaur also!!


tiptiptap tap tip tip tap tap ! tap tip taptap tip tiptip tap!
yey~ tomorrow nite gg watch riverdance
feel so slack like exam on fri.. plus presentation on fri. LOL
but. wadeva!

todae..
cant help smiling at a postcard. =)
couldnt even hold the smile in for one sec. haha! it had to burst out on my face

talking about burst
FIREWORKS BY KATY PERRY. go watch the mtv. nicey nice!




o crap o shit o no o no
river dance is till 12 dec
o no o no
should i just go buy the tickets n watch ? its only bout 2 hours of time taken..
ahh
to go or not to go..
....
who wants to go ??




where issit that prior to CHRISTMAS
we r mugging?
cant wait for xmas!
tho .. got no plans for celebration of ani sort.. but.
yey!
ding ding ding. ding ding ding.. christmas is on the way! yeyy yey!




e pic of this i duno what car that i saw .. took it to show lg.. haha! finally trans to computer! haha! got snorkle! lol.
weird how i look more at cars.. more at cats.. n even wan to run into a puddle of water! hahaha!!!!
i cant believe we actually took such an ugly pics.. we both look so terrible! omg!!!! so cmi!
this is a warning.. prior to the malaysia trip. we shall nt take such pics again to haunt our memories! hahhaha!!!


its so irritating when things have past n ppl KEEP harping on it
for god's sake...
have a little EQ when dealing with such stuffs.. u wan to talk doesnt equate to the fact that other ppl wan to talk ? get the idea?
argh...


aniwaes..
on a lighter note.
im money faced! cos .. van called me ask me want to teach tuition at the tiong bahru place that she has taught.. n i decided. why not?
by taking 2 classes per week. i earn about $500 a month..
n this fund will go to trips.. n hopefully gss..

reali realli realli truly hoping n crossing my fingers
dat u wunt get any letter till after applying for gss
realli realli realli truly hope we can go tog!! anywhere is ok.
like what joan kips telling me
somehow.. its the company that matter. not the place u go. or the things u do.
cos ultimately
singapore is so freaking small.. there's bound to be .. NOTHING to do most of the time.. lol!

n talking about that
its so irritating that coffeeshops n hawker centres are all starting to become monopolized
cos it means..
the same choices of food regardless of which one u go too. n thus
the frustration of not knowing what to eat or where to eat sets in.
do hope that those private little nice stalls will remain n not get eaten up by the bigger conglomerates or companies.. eg. my lovely salty cai peng stall n wantan mee stall at blk 429.. haha
n .. regarding globalization.. (since im packing my 315 file)

rem the times we used to squeal n get excited about going to wisma's cotton on.. to shop for niec n affordable clothing?
now. its EVERYWHERE.. there is no more excitment in travelling to places further away.. cos the shops r just repeated.. in jp, in imm, in west mall, in lot 1, in town.. omg. its so sian now
that all shopping centres r like moulded from the same template..
ramble ramble ramble.... haha!
can we not have the same stalls in all shopping malls? its realli sian. .. cos it just equates to like having jurong point in jurong, in town, in the east, in the north, in the south. its so identical that.. it seems a bit pointless to travel far away to eat or shop for something in maybe erm. causeway point. cos.. jurong point has it? hahaha!

ok
shall stop niaming