a trip to the zoo! with the most wonderful little brats in the world! n a dear lou gong! n my two bros. n joe's gf. n my mummy! n the maid. n two not so cute cousins. HAHA!



guess who we met at the zoo! NIC! haha! of all places.. lol



cutie pie posing for a pic! so so so cute!



naughty boy! happy!



ah! TWO cutie pies! =)




the diao face. when i ask him gimme a pose. HAHA!!!

gg taiwan tom!
packed for damn long.
the longest time i ever packed
n i haven even bathed!
omg
n back's aching..
yawnz!
kenna forced to go 7.30am mass tom. faintz
den airport!!! =)
fun in TAIWAN! here we come

u will be missed!! <3



ding ding ding ding ding ding.. jingle all the way! merry xmas one n all!! =) had a great Xmas 2009! food was great. atmosphere was great. deco was realli nice n xmassy.. games etc.. lucky draw.. karaoke.. lol. itz not a typical party that ppl nowdays host whereby u sit ard do nothing n rot n there's no interaction b/w grps.. instead. it was fun! =)

n everyone followed the theme. (other than my dad) n wore shocking stuffs. omg.


my best xmas pressie ever! MR LEE!thankz for everything u have done to make me happy! n loved! yey! =)



everyone nids a cute elf on xmas day! but im one lucky girl. i've got one for prob the rest of my life!!!!


=) HAPPY!


my xmas pressie from my best xmas pressie ever! hahaha!!! love it to bits!!! dunno where to put though. cos i wan to put it eveywhere!! shall leave it on my table first where i can see it the most! =)


every xmas is a different experience..
whether its happy or not
itz all inside of u!=)
so let the happiness burst out from within n stay happy for the whole year till the next xmas
whereby another outburst of happiness will surge into everyone's lives!
so .
in other words. . we'll get happier n happier all the time! =)
MERRY XMAS EVERYONE! hohoho!




some pathetic but farni things from FML.

Today, my girlfriend canceled our date I've been looking forward to all week because her dog was having puppies. She doesn't have a dog. FML

Today, I decided to sign up to a dating website. After having a long conversation with one of my matches about how much I hate my job, I decided to meet up with him. It was my boss. FML

Today, at my job as a cake decorator in a bakery, I put the finishing touches on the wedding cake of the man who left me at the altar 3 years ago. FML

Today, I texted my Dad to tell him I'm staying at my boyfriend's house and won't be home. Since I had predictive text on, my phone didn't quite get the word 'home' - the message I sent said, 'I'm staying at Will's, I'll not be good tonight.' FML

Today, it's my birthday, and apparently my family forgot it. But one person didn't forget. My dog gave me a little present in my new shoes I bought for myself. FML

body works was not bad.. too bad the bodies werent as scary n life like as i thought they would be.. too much plastination.. lol.



the return of loh shih ying! las vegas may be fun. but .. singapore's still the best. with the food, smells, sounds, family, friends that surrounds u. wad more could one ask for? tink even the time lapse of one year of not meeting n hardly talking didnt have much effect on our friendship.. no barriers .. no awkwardness.. just plain chattering.. ..



pan pan n joel r in singapore too!
first time meeting joel's gf.. she's nice n friendly but cant realli understand wad im saying cos i speak too fast.. she seems ok with louis' slow speech.. n rena's .. itz amazing how relationships canbe formed overseas n yet maintained.. does absence realli make the heart grow fonder? haha
aniwae.. ate the famous duck rice with them.. n right after that we went to the prata house to eat n drink teh.. omg. pigs. !

woke up todae. tot of jogging
but.. no mood to jog..
so .. decided to stay home n continue writing xmas cards.. n send out some festive greetings to ppl! a few new additions this yr on my list!
slow progress.. still feeeling groggy from last nite.. :(
ok. shall continue riting!!

n thankz lee yaya! =)



life is like a rollercoaster
one min u r up
the next. u r down. like realli down.
sometimes i realli detest facebook
i just sink into depression.
ya.



itz time to go to bed early.
n not care animore.
nitenite! =)



my mum alwaez said
when women get upset. all they nid is some comforting words to the ears
some gentle n nice gesture
some warmth n happiness
thatz all they nid

they nid no logic. cos women apparently dun realli make a lot of sense..
they nid no reasons n statements n measurements.. cos they believe that feelings surpass all these fixed measurements
they nid no scoldings to wake them up from their dream or slumber

all they need is just to have some nice comforting words from the ppl they love n who loves them
all they need is
a hug
a kiss
a smile
a note
even a box of pucca =)
no matter how small n insignificant it may appear in the eyes of the man
to a woman.
it IS significant.

from a sian mood.miraculously.
my mood has turned the other way alreadi. with the aid of msn.


aniwae..
on another note
this week is gg to be rather hectic
todae- out with bf n then band

tom- out to meet shihying who came back from las vegas for a while... n den rena.. n den joel & panpan n wh for duck rice at pasir panjang..

wed-out with nie section mates.. shopping for things we may nid for taiwan. change money. get plastic mouthpiece b4 our lips get stuck to the mouthpiece n torn out in the cold weather.

thurs-morn go ridges with vithiya n ben to walk.. since ben's outings alwaez fails! so.. shant be so evil. den go home bathe n change go xmas party! n go town with lg walk walk see lights

fri-XMAS DAY. planned to bbring sean n etc to the ZOOOO!! =) =)

sat- i think there's nie band. i tink la..

sun- off to taiwan! =)





itz amazing how ppl in the eupho section can somehow alwayz click =)
nie band concert.
may not have been the best in terms of music etc.
wadz more impt is the friendships that have been forged during this module that is hardly to be present in other modules.
like will u go bond with the whole cohort taking forensci sci or astronomy etc? no rite? lol

yong an zhiyong hafiz leon valerie yan zhen darius marie
nie band 2009 =)




remember the days.. lalalala
one year ago. we went on a secret jb trip. 17th dec 2008! ..
n ya. pathetic but this is my only pic which has three of us. n itz BLUR! hahaha!

one year later,



jinling joined us on another jb trip. itz not counted secret. but still.. haha! yey! sang at another k box this time. but we still went to big leg ( dai giog) to an mo. n it HURTS! ah! lou gong n my back quite pain. haha!! n jinling look like she is doing teh tarik! lol.


thankz to him. my kbox song knowledge has increased =) lol. cos alwaez sit his car n har him sing. or hear him play the new songs.. so .. yey!! n baby had fun todae! met up with old fren.- skeleton rat.

next amazing thing. everytime after gg to secret jb trip. i'll end up meeting the bandies. lol.


last yr was zy's bdae. so bot secret recipe cake back to surprise him at his block..




this yr. we met up to eat dinner at toh guan! n go youwei's house to rot.. lol. n also got 3 slices of secret recipe cake to eat. HAHA!


amazing how everything can change
n yet. friendships remain =) yey!



HIGHLIGHTS FROM MALACCA!




this pic is damn cool. look at the clouds! at the bottom left hand corner. can u see? itz raining! so looks as tho the clouds r perpendicular! omg! cooool!

malaysia has nice clouds!

ah! baby went on the trip with us! so much cuter den boy boy .. haha! ok la. in case rena sees. both as cute.

this is the sweet hum jim peng from the famous you tiao stall. since you tiao n hum jin peng same flour.. just buy that.. cos you tiao sold out!! n itz realli nice!!!! =)
at the "hong2 wu1" .. all the red colour buildings..

food at malacca was.. cheap..CHeap.. CHEAP!!!! eat so much n still like half price. where can u find such cheap food! omg. my wan ton mee was nice. n onli RM2.80. OMG LA! .hahaha! $1.20 sing? faintz.. n itz nice lor. not the like singapore kind. tsktsktsk.

famous chicken rice ball stall !!! =) but. the assam fish was way way way way nicer!!


malacca/jb( we went senibong to eat! nice n full!)
the trip was fun! but tink it was realli tiring for mr lee the driver .. who drove long hours on a manual car.. lucky for him. he had the help of Goh Poh Seng.. which aided us in the routes ard malacca.. lol.. n found some of the nice foods that chinchin said..
ate a lot. didnt buy much. but the food was the best part alreadi..
even a simple zhi char stall that looks so cmi.. had food that tasted heavenly. itz the WAAA!! so nice..
lol.
great trip! laid back.. happy! n fat.. gained 2 kg. argh. lol.
yawnz. time for slp!
no supper tonite.. lol.

hello to JB tomorrow! with rena wh n jinling! lol.



while eating authentic jap food with my dad's jap fren uncle joe.. who wanted to treat me cos i love jap food
uncle joe said sth that was quite applicable to wad im studying.. sociology..
could see from his face..
he said it earnestly . n with a tinge of sadness in his eyes
he talked about how jap food is an accumulation of culture etc..
the exquisiteness, the effort put in.. the tradition that follows every type of food.. is becoming sth that is forgotten n not regarded as of any worth to the current younger japs animore
he was rather disappointed at how jap culture is slowly but surely .. fading away..

sushi tei.. sakae.. etc.. r all not true jap cuisines.. not because they taste nothing like authentic jap food. bt the meaning behind each food item has been lost as jap culture is being commercialized to suit current trends.. taste.. fast food.. instead of enjoying each piece slowly.. it becomes a fast paced form of eating with little regards to the quality..
without admiring the way the food is placed.. is decorated..
without meaning..

so he was telling me.. to rem all these traditions that we know n we love. n not let them diminish into the thin air.. to disappear forever.. like how jap culture is slowly being eradicated from this world.. perhaps that why we take subj like culture self n identity.. soci of food.. etc. .. the social world. the ppl. the culture. the traditions. the way we r .. r results of the past.. which should not be forgotten n ignored n carried on void of ani meaning..

the way he ate his sushi.. his sashimi.. the way he drank his tea n enjoyed each sip..
put me in shame as i gobbled up my food a first..

itz so interesting..
so. if u tink u r like some damn hip n cool jap-like person. wa.. eat at ichiban.. eat at shit wadz that place called. the one oppo ichiban in jp. suddenly forgot..
u wunt feel the diff b/w those restaurants n the one in jap assoc.. cos whe u eat there. u realli feel urself being immersed into the culture..

quite cool huh
some revelation from a simple meal
which costs a bomb! my unagi was like $56 .. so.. can u imagine the 3 types of tofu.. the fish. the sashimi. the dessert. the drinks.. the soju. omg. the udon. the tempuras.
thankz uncle joe! lol.
not just for the meal. but for some more insights on stuffs that many have forgotten! =)






itz been ages since i last felt this terrible
itz the same kind of giddiness that i felt after my blood donation last time in sajc.. where i was so giddy all i wan to do was puke

after 2 hours of badminton..
felt ok
den after a while
felt giddy.. so giddy till i felt pukey. so didnt eat any lunch.. smelling food made me queasy alreadi
den.. went home to bathe etc..
bot a pack of mixed rice to you wei's house to eat
..
sang some k box with ting ma.. ting ma should join like singapore idol.. n sing songs. her voice realli v nice! i'll vote for u ting ma! n a lot of other ppl too! go break ur bond with nie! lol

aniwae..
felt so bad
went to puke. half of my mixed rice was puked out
den ..
lie on the floor... lie on the sofa n attempted to slp. but upon standing up
bad bad bad.. went to toilet to puke again. this time. i tink i puked out all my day's worth of food intake.. n panadol extra
.. den went for dinner
didnt eat.. turned off by food again
..
crossed the road.. onli to realize. i wanted to puke again.
so .. this time.. puked at the void deck. haha.. my beloved bile was out..
got an ah pek sit at the void deck chair there staring.. lol
..
went for nie band.
but cmi. so went ck's room to slp for 3 hours
n become much better with lg's sms-es etc..
went for supper after nie band prac..

so . all i ate todae. was like a burger.. for supper.
omg. thatz terrible.
goodbye my mixed rice.. puked u out! lol.
this day .. seemed so so long.. never ending

yawnz. time to go slp again soooooon



my heart feels weird.
:(



there's a woman who's so happy! who was at first grumbling about how tired she was.. n she dun want go swim le.
in the end she was the happiest one there at the jacuzzi.(omg how to spell!)
she was like. see i can an mo my stomach.. den it'll be skinny.
see i can can mo my legs.. v comfy..
haha!!!


den daddy came down to join us.. just realized how tan he is!


the two clean ppl who bathe liao!


hungry. n bored. waiting for daddy to finish doing his suana.. so we waited at 99's house..
n tada! todae.. we went shopping! mummy bot 3 things for me. a jacket .. a plaid top.. n a pair of jeans leggings! yey!!!! n that's her new suit of .. i dunno .. some traditional nice thing.. haha!!!
credits to the photographer. tan jie ying. who finally managed to take a nice picture! hahaha!! cos norm she take v cmi pics.. like zoom in on face ar.. etc! reminds me .. of.. zheng yiting ! hahaha!!!





looking at my xiao bu dians.. suddenly remembered crinkles..
one of the hamsters that i had for the shortest time
but yet.. can rem the most.
when i bot him from the petshop..
rem how everyone was like. omg u wan to buy this one? v fierce. not nice. etc
onli one person was nice to crinkles in that petshop..
the rest poked it with pens or wadeva.. no wonder they sae it bites..
i miss the shiny black fur
the dayy i carried it.. n rena was so disgusted that i like this little black wriggly thing.
sometimes .
not everything in life is replaceable..
once u have lost it.
itz gone
so do treasure everything u have! =)
even tho i have pringles now. itz just different i guess..
itz impossible to forget the day i saw a stiff body of crinkles..



*itz so exciting!!*
can u imagine
urself on a bike
not as a pillion
but as a rider?
the feeling is great!
despite falling a few times.. n having a painful bruise near my shin
somehow.. itz realli exciting to finally do sth concrete instead of dreaming
to take a step forward despite the many "no.. dun do this" , " no itz not safe" ..
( tho itz for my own good.. so thank u too =) )
but itz just..
ya.. like wad mych said. itz SURREAL!
to be riding a bike in circle ard the small circuit..
to be able to control it.. tho itz just first gear todae onli..
but more imptly.
to just dare to do sth that i've always wanted
itz realli tiring. cos the bike's so heavy. n itz rather scary at first when all u were tot is how to move front n back n etc. n suddenly the instructor says. ok. go round n round the circuit. . n u go blank!
tired. sweaty n hot. but.. enjoyed it ..
realli did

must thank mych.. if no mych. i doubt i will take that one step to do sth i wan ..
itz just different when u have someone who has e same passion n is willing to go do it with u
it gives one that extra push n motivation somehow..

n prob if wh didnt agree to it.. or seemed upset about it. i would not have taken it either. cos his opinions do matter a lot!
so ..

xie xie lo! glad mych wanted to learn with me n glad lou gong accepted that i realli wan to learn n let me do it! ( w/o feeling so guilty that i did it against many's wishes)
even if i fall. injure myself or sth.. no matter wad la.. i'd still be glad there were ppl who let me n helped me chase this little small wild n maybe stupid(to some) dream of mine.. which i once tot would never ever be fulfilled.. cos prob the whole world would object n be terrified that i wanna ride.

vvvRRRROOOOOMMMMMMmmmm =)
n yey! met lou gong todae. despite it being a while onli..
so so tired... walking hurts a bit .. lol. but. wadeva!







lg's new qi er papa! v cute one!




=)


=)

had a great day todae...
amazing how happy i can be when i see him..
even tho itz been 14 months..




" 生命就是那么的离奇，一生中拐了那么多的弯,
碰了那么多的壁,
受了那么多的伤,
才发现到许多的东西在冥冥中早已有了安排。
我一直在寻找的、
认为不可能的都在我无法理性的情况下一一在我眼前揭开。

感觉好像是在戒毒一样，
浑身不舒服，一直想拿起电话法简讯。
克制自己是件痛苦的事，但是我不能这么自私。

不明白人为什么要这么复杂，也许是我想太多吧？

人生就是一个选择。选择几点起床、几点吃饭、吃什么、做什么、讲什么、听什么。。。
选择慢慢来也是一种选择。
选择要和不要也是选择。
有时候，有些选择不是我们可以选择的，因为主权不在我们手上。
那么我们就只可以做到最好，
不能控制的选择就不要去管它吧。

世上最美丽的东西应就是真爱。
爱是一切奇迹的推动力，只一切创造的源头。
我想能够爱是一件很美丽的事。
能够相爱更是一件难能可贵的奇迹。
两个完全不同的人竟能够相亲相爱，
并白头偕老真是超越了逻辑。"

adapted from ah fat.


o.. went to dig out my NHSS 2003 SYF cd.
and a multitude with one voice spoke
n
tales of the sea
listening to it. tho it may not sound perfect
but.. still. it brings back so so so so so much memories that i would love to go thru once more.
sobs..
how me van qingling etc prac the fast parts millions of times.
how we struggled with it. but end up being able to play it.. even tho our notes were seemingly covered by the blastings of other instruments..

sometimes
no matter how hard we scream
no one can hear us.



You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go

And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played on lips 'till it's madness in my head

Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur

Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door

You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far

Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true

Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do

More than anything I want to see you go
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world


nice song..




sometimes this question pops out inevitably in my mind. n it realli makes me wonder.
who on earth m i ? why am i in this body? why m i typing. m i .. marie?

a cute cat.. =)






if the world had no colours. it would b terrible.. lucky. it has.


a childhood memory of babe. the ONLY movie i watched 4 times. in a CINEMA.



my fav colour is "RAD". just tot of stupid bimbotic ris low.
shall tattoo that.. one day.. lol. maybe like when i have 1 year b4 i die or sth. that is if i know when im dying la.


a blog is an open diary
but a diary is a private thing
so. why have i been blogging? for years.. since sec sch i suppose?
blogs sometimes help us know wad our frenz have been up to..
how the ppl we dun meet are
how they feel

but wad bout those who onli pen down certain things in their lives
like their joys etc
perhaps cos these are the memories that they wan to kip=)